Hi i often feel this way i have ocd and ms and depression but i have 2 girls to look after. I used to be asking questions on here a lot as a few probably know but i don`t really now as you do really have to do it yourself unfortunately there is not really any help for ocd i know other than helping yourself and you have to try and keep busy and tell yourself that it is not real just thoughts and it cannot hurt you in any way. I have wished lots over the years that was more help for ocd and other mental health issues but there is nothing it really in the end comes down to doing it yourself and having the stregnth to get better. I have bad days still but know if i don`t fight it noone else will do it for me, My family have never understood, Not sure how they can i don`t really know why i think this way either. I hope you can fight this but i know it bloody hard to do i don`t think anyone without ocd will ever know how hard it is but try and believe in yourself and try as hard as you can to get better co really noone wil do it for you in the end you have to fight this horrible illness yourself,
All the best
Joanne