I was diagnosed with ocd a long time ago now. I used to be on here everyday. In the end I managed to cope and got lot beta through help of therapy and friends. But now im back to square one again. Im so scared and anxious weather these awful thoughts are ocd or not. I keep thinking if my kids would be safer if I left and there dad just looked after them. But I cant leave them it would kill me. I love my kids. Im going to self refer myself back to therapy. I struggle through everyday feel so depressed.