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Lucy24601

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About Lucy24601

  • Birthday 01/07/1988

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    Bedford
  • Interests
    Musicals, small animals, Tube trains, piano and walking.

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  1. Hello, I don't suffer from acne, but I do get small spots often on my face. I also have psoriasis on my legs and arms. Compulsive skin picking has a long name (dermatillomania). I have it as part of my Tourette Syndrome. I too spend far too much time looking in the mirror and picking off the imperfections! I have scars on my face where I have started with a tiny spot, no bigger than a pin head, then ended up digging it out so far it couldn't heal for ages. I often don't notice when my hands have drifted upwards to my face/neck/arms and are picking until someone points it out! My most recent pick was an ingrown hair which I have really caused some damage to the skin. The trouble is I couldn't stop until I got that hair out, which meant I have done some serious harm and I keep picking at it even though it is healing over. So yes, I do understand what you are going through (minus the acne). It is very frustrating.
  2. I often get thoughts like these when I hear bad news. Like my brain wants it to happen. At the moment I am in a good place with my OCD and I am able to rationalise that it is just a horrid rumination.
  3. I had a compulsion to harm myself exactly four times on my left arm whenever I hurt someone or broke something due to my anger. My anger was fuelled by my anxiety. I would definitely not rule what you are experiencing out as an OCD behaviour. It took me a long time to stop the compulsion, but you'll be glad to hear I stopped it and haven't done it for over a year. It wasn't a simple process, I had to sort my anger out before I could sort the compulsion.
  4. Google can be useful, but only if you know in your own mind that you have just got IBS (for example) and not bowel cancer! I often google symptoms, more to check if they are normal or whether I should see a doctor. I rarely go to my GP and I don't suffer from health anxiety any more. Back when I did, Dr Google was indeed a dangerous physician!
  5. I have suffered from the condition misophonia since I was 12 years old. I developed OCD when I was 6. My support worker believes that a lot of the condition is to do with my OCD as I begin to 'obsess' over hearing a trigger sound. A quick summary of misophonia is that it is a 'hatred of sound' (sometimes visual triggers) so certain sounds literally drive the sufferer to insanity. Eating sounds, chewing gum, sniffing and background noise from MP3 players are common triggers (all of which I have). Unfortunately, I also have bass music in my list. I live up the road from a pub where they have live music pretty much every week. I fret about it constantly and develop anxiety attacks. Unfortunately, I was placed near the pub and cannot move, so I am trying to learn coping mechanisms to control my anxiety but I am really struggling. Does anyone else have misophonia as well as OCD and do you also believe it could be linked?
  6. Yes it definitely comes in episodes. I'm going to roller derby tomorrow so hopefully someone will whack me back into reality although I even feel the thoughts on my skates! That's how I know it's bad, when even skating and singing can't distract me! I'm going to play the Sims 3 for a while. Maybe controlling other 'people's' lives for a while will help me take my mind off my own!
  7. I've had a really bad week. My OCD has been pretty active for a while now but today has just topped it all. Yesterday I found out my Grandad has dementia. OCD is now telling me that I must have thought about giving him dementia hence he now has it. I'm causing the ebola outbreak, the war in the middle east, fires across town (must stress that last one I am really NOT!) etc. Basically if something bad happens, it's my fault. Now here's the thing. I KNOW these thoughts are stupid. They are illogical, irrational and I know they are my illness, not reality. The problem is, every time I talk myself through one rumination, another one takes it's place instantaneously and I then have to break through that one, then another thought, then break, then thought... it's literally non-stop. By the time this cycle has gone round about 10 different 'you caused this to happen' routines, it starts back at the first one which I tried so hard to stop. So what on earth can I do to help myself? I know it's my illness, I have tried distracting myself with no luck (literally end up ruminating no matter what I am doing), can't focus on anything and I'm starting to become depressed with it. Has anyone got any ideas or strategies I could try? In the meantime I will continue telling myself that these are just thoughts, but it's like I'm being taken over
  8. I get thoughts like that too. It is horrible but everyone is right, you need to re-focus. Lots of hugs
  9. Hello, It does sound odd that these things have happened. It's difficult sometimes as we can have real bad things happen to us and we convince ourselves it's our OCD! It's like the reverse of the normal issue. I'd leave it a little longer and if any more 'coincidences' happen, consider talking informally to a police officer. In the meantime, block requests from strangers.
  10. Well, that story didn't develop but Max had ADHD!
  11. Stop Think You are cycling your thoughts, this will not help. I have had thoughts of sexual attraction to children, this does not make me a paedophile. You haven't acted on your thought, therefore you are not a paedophile regardless of what doctor Google says. I understand right now it's tough for you to think straight, but just really try and focus on something else. Please don't feel scared or alone. I am sending lots of hugs to you, I wish I could be there for you in reality. Just please remember 'It's just a thought'.
  12. I have a similar but opposite problem. I AM gay and sometimes get doubts that I might be straight! I think the thing is, I know quite clearly that I am only attracted to women, but the doubt is always there!
  13. I totally agree, if you are in a particularly bad episode of OCD, looking symptoms up on Dr Google is a terrible idea! I've looked things up when well, kind of knowing what was wrong with me, but even NHS direct can tell you it's either constipation or bowel cancer! It's best to always go to your GP if you are genuinely worried about a symptom, but I expect you know that! OCD can defy our logic at the best of times!
  14. To sum it up, the other day one of my support workers entered my room and screamed 'WHAT'S THAT!?' I answered 'the floor...' She hadn't seen it in such a long time! I have ADHD and dyspraxia as well as OCD although my OCD used to be a cause of my mess as I had fear of chemicals, touching dirty things and I was bordering on becoming a hoarder. But yeah most of the time my room is a pit. My OCD is much different to the stereotype!
  15. Hello, I have the same thoughts very often. I have a great aunty who is diagnosed with schizophrenia (I also have a late great aunty with OCD) and back before I knew I had OCD, I wondered if the thoughts in my head were 'voices' as I often hear them berating me or arguing with one another. At one point I was even put on anti-psychotics. Until about last year, I was still struggling with this thought that I was schizophrenic or developing it. While playing with Dr Google (one of my naughty shames!) I stumbled across the term 'intrusive thoughts' which then led me to OCD-UK. I spoke with a professional about what I had read and they agreed that this is my OCD. It's been over two years since this revelation yet I STILL get obsessed that I am hearing voices! I hate OCD!
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