Purplepiper7

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About Purplepiper7

  • Birthday 19/05/99

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    Music, math, poetry, neuroscience, robotics, medicine, and astrophysics.

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  1. Yeah... It's just hard sometimes.
  2. I was going to say that I don't know what to do, but I do know what to do, I'm just having trouble doing it. My mom bought me a new phone because I dropped my old one and it doesn't function anymore. I feel like I should ask her to cancel the order, but I don't really want her to do that. I think I'd feel better if I didn't actually want the thing. I'm reasonably certain that wanting a new phone doesn't exactly make me a terrible person. I should probably stop thinking about it and enjoy time off of school like a normal person. God...
  3. Negative: I had a horrible day at school. I was having very graphic, very disturbing thoughts about harming people, to the point where I basically refused to go to class, so I got sent to ISS, which is basically detention that takes place during the school day, because I was being insubordinate. Every time I refuse to go to class, I will be sent to ISS, but if I'm honest, I don't really care. I'm tired of dealing with OCD, and I'm tired of hearing other people complain to me about how difficult it is for them to deal with me. Positive: I had a chicken sandwich for dinner, and it was delicious. I also went on a walk, and it was nice. I like the cold weather.
  4. Oh, like a garden decoration? Why would you want to eat one of those?
  5. Or you can watch the Charlie Brown Christmas special.
  6. You ate a penguin!?
  7. Why not go and see your neice? Even if you don't feel anything, she probably wants to meet you, and you may feel something once you see her.
  8. That must've been awful. My OCD started affecting my schoolwork when I was in 4th grade. It got a little bit better in 6th grade, but towards the end of 7th grade, it got much worse; since then, things have been going downhill. I'm going to do what you said (I'm practicing right now). I'm just getting frustrated, because things that worked earlier this year aren't working now.
  9. Thanks PolarBear. I try to resist engaging with my OCD, but I always end up giving into it. I know that it takes practice and all, but teachers don't wait for you to catch up. It's kind of like one of those "damned if you do, damned if you don't" situations, because when I engage with my OCD, I'm distracted, and if I ignore my OCD, then I can't focus. You said that you've had OCD since you were a teenager, right? Did you have similar problems? How did you deal with it during school?
  10. Yes, that's what I mean. I'm seeing a psychologist at the moment, and he's been helping me with mindfulness meditation. We've been working of breathing exercises for about 3 weeks, now, and they're really helpful when dealing with sensory overload, but not so helpful when I'm trying to focus on class instead of engaging with my OCD.
  11. At school, my OCD is more difficult to deal with because there are triggers everywhere, and I can't exactly get up and play my clarinet in the middle of Algebra, nor can I pull out my cell phone and play solitaire in the middle of Geography. My mom gets upset because she'll get in trouble if I don't go to school, and that's a very valid reason to be upset, but nothing that I've tried to do to handle it works. Writing in my journal doesn't help, and neither does taking a 5-10 minute break from class. Using a stress ball doesn't work, either. Listening to music is beneficial, but those stupid earbuds that I'd have to use hurt my ears. I asked for headphones (you know, the ones that cover your entire ear), but those are pretty expensive, and my mom said that you can't use them during class, anyways. Some people think that I'm making excuses, but I'm having a lot of trouble and I was wondering if any of you had any suggestions.
  12. Positive: I've recently begun seeing a psychologist. Negative: The aforementioned psychologist is my last hope, and I'm starting to think that even he can't help.
  13. Do you think that it could be a side effect of venlafaxine? My doctor prescribed that for me a couple of years ago, and it made everything worse. Hope you're feeling better today.