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Symps07

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  • OCD Status
    Sufferer
  • Type of OCD
    Rumination & Intrusive thoughts are the main 2. But also a variety of others

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    Male
  • Location
    United Kingdom
  • Interests
    Music, Socialising, Exercising (when motivated!), Cinema

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  1. Offloading

    I know how you feel! Everytime I think I overcome it, it rears it's ugly head again! But I do feel a lot better than I did a few years ago, so, progress maybe slow but it's getting better! That's why I think it's too much effort to try & put on a mask of happiness all the time. I don't mean you have to wallow in your own misery, but just remember that you're a work in progress (like the rest of us! ) . Also, sometimes it's good to have a rant! & I'm sure your family & friends will understand your need to get things off your chest as well. Symps
  2. feeling hopeless

    Hi Rover, I think you just need to do what you feel is best for you in regards to this relationship. It sounds as though whatever choice you make your OCD will want to make it presence felt, so do whats best for you & be prepared to deal with your OCD whatever choice you make & don't be so hard on yourself, you're human & you deserve to be happy as much as anybody else! Symps
  3. Offloading

    Hi Skullpops, I find that sometimes, the effort of putting on the appearance of being happy & 'normal' can just add weight to the issue's the issues I am already dealing with. It's okay to not be okay. I'd say, concentrate on treating your OCD & don't worry about 'plastering a smile on your face', your smile will develop naturally as your OCD goes Symps
  4. Same as it ever was...

    You're right Gemma, I just get fed up of all the ups & downs! It becomes so frustrating! Still, it's the weekend & I intend on relaxing & enjoying it! Hope you do too
  5. panic

    I used to look on facebook & see everybody's pictures & think that I was missing out. Took me a while to realise that everyone only puts they 'happy' pics on there & that it's not a true reflection of their lives. I used to always look back & wish I'd done this or that. But hardly ever do nowadays & now I realise that I'm happier where I am & if there is something I don't like, then I can try to change the situation. But it is so much easier with a calmer mind! I know if you can work on overcoming your OCD, you'll start to feel more at ease with yourself, less panic'd & be in a better place to meet someone actually worth meeting. But at 17, you've got plenty of time, so try not to worry to much about finding a partner just yet
  6. panic

    Hi Freya, I didn't get a girlfriend until I was 34! It was very much worth the wait though! I totally get why you titled this post 'Panic'! I feel the same when I get obsessions about many different things at the same time. It can be overwhelming! Regarding all the thoughts, I would just try not to ruminate on them, it'll lead you nowhere but to more ruminating. It's hard, but try to just let the thoughts be when they enter your head & not engage with them. It takes practice, but it's doable & after a while they'll become less frequent & intense. I hope things are a bit calmer for you now? Symps
  7. Guilt causing ocd?

    Hi Jen, I don't believe that I have experienced similar, but I think if you went to see a CBT therapist, they would help you to look into your anxiety, obsessions etc.. & hopefully find the source of your problems. Certainly be worth a try? The other thing I thought is, is the 'bad thing' really as bad as you think it is, or is this OCD's way of making you feel bad about yourself, as OCD has a way of making people think they are guilty when really it's the OCD making us feel guilty.
  8. Suicidal.

    Hi Haayleey, I'm not sure what you 'theme' is, but from reading this thread, I guess that at least part of it involves thoughts of harming other people. I've had thoughts of harming other people & I know what you mean when you say it's as though you are agreeing with them, or want these things to happen. But it's the OCD making you feel that way. The thought of harming someone else is usually about thinking you are a bad person, & the agreeing with, wanting to do it thoughts are a continuation of that theme. Ie, I want to do, therefore I am a bad person. It's still OCD, it just throws itself at you in different angles. I hope you are feeling more calm at the moment? Symps
  9. Same as it ever was...

    Hi Ginger, Thank you & nice to hear from you again How are you keeping these days? Hi Gemma, I know you're right, but as you know, with OCD, knowing what's right & 'feeling' whats right often feel like totally different things. Think I need to slow myself down & keep working on overcoming my OCD! Good to hear from you also! I hope you are keeping well?
  10. Same as it ever was...

    Hi Roy, Thank you for your response, it's brilliant! I know that you're right in everything you say above, but it is nice (& I think, important also) to hear from someone else who knows what it's like to have OCD. I am trying to do as you say, but as you know, with OCD, it's never so simple! thank you for you advice, I shall keep fighting! Kind regards, Mark
  11. Hi all, I hope you are all well (or as well as can be ), I've not been here for a few months & my OCD has been up & down. Before Christmas, I was waking up with anxiety & it's started again the last week or so. I say anxiety, because I feel the anxiety before I am actual aware of what it is that I am supposed to feel anxious about. I think I know what my OCD is about, it's mainly to do with morality & religion. I'm not particularly religious, but went to a CofE School & went to church with the Cubs, so I was raised with religion around & believed that it was a given that I was going to heaven, even once I had stopped going to church into my late teens I still had that feeling. I keep feeling guilty about everything, homelessness, famine, children starving in the third world, etc... I just keep thinking how am I or anyone supposed to life our lives when there are people suffering in the world. How can I spend money on myself, when i would be better spent on someone whose starving or needs medical help? It doesn't help that I see adverts for charities on TV & the internet everywhere showing the troubles of the world. Everyone triggers my OCD, & if it doesn't, then I think it should & I trigger myself! I know what I should do. Work my OCD. Don't ruminate & do some exposure therapy & keep working it. But it is so constant & everytime I try, I feel guilty because I think that I should be thinking about it! On top of that, I keep thinking about death & what's the point of everything. It's all a bit of a bummer tbh! :-/ I'm not looking for reassurance, just wanted to get it off my chest with people who understand the **** OCD through's at you! Kind regards, Mark
  12. It sounds to me as though your 'confessions' are a type of reassurance seeking.
  13. Hi Ddess! Welcome to the forum I'm not sure why your GP thinks that because you do not have any physical compulsions that you do not have OCD? What you describe above, to me, is ruminating, which is when you engage with an intrusive thought & try to rationalise it, argue against it, find an answer etc... & the thoughts keep going round & round with no satisfiying outcome. There are seems to be some reassurance seeking compulsion there from what you mention about how you used to ask you Mother to reassure you. Perhaps your GP does not fully understand what OCD is? This is a link to the different types of OCD here on the OCD UK website. It might be worth looking through this & some of the other pages & seeing if any of these symptoms match how you feel, maybe print the pages that relate to you off, highlighting the bits that relate to your obsessions/compulsions & take them to show your GP? http://www.ocduk.org/types-ocd If you have no luck with your GP, are you able to contact a mental health specialist directly & tell them of your symptoms? In the meantime, keep using this website for information on OCD & try & take heed of the ways to overcome it! Ask questions here if there is anything you are stuck on, someone will be sure to help Best of luck tomorrow. Kind regards, Symps
  14. Cry For Help!

    No worries. I hope you are feeling better ?
  15. Cry For Help!

    Hi Oceanblue, I'm so sorry that you're feeling this way. I used to get thoughts involving children & that I might be a pedophile. I got to the stage, where I couldn't face going into work anymore & I ended up harming myself & having to go to the local infirmary to get looked at. I'd been going through my OCD for a few years & just about managing but then I had an affair with a married woman & thought she may be pregnant (Another OCD theme which heavily influenced my thoughts) & it was the straw that broke the camels back & it all got too much for me. It sounds like you are ruminating a lot. Rumination is difficult (but not impossible) to stop. You can't stop the thoughts appearing in your head, but you can choose not to engage with them. Try to recognize them for what they are & don't allow your anxiety to push you into more fruitless engagement with them. If you've been shown how to do exposure therapy, it may be worth trying this when you are home? Do what you feel comfortable with & go from there. But remember, don't put to much pressure on yourself or be to hard on yourself. Everybody stumbles & you wouldn't expect someone who is learning to walk again to run around the block! If you're family or friends no about your OCD, talk to the about it. Don't look for reassurance, but just tell them how you're feeling & make the understand that you need a bit of support at the moment. Working your OCD is hard at times, so don't over do & try to relax, do something that relax's you or makes you happy & just take time out every once in a while. (Exercise is really useful!) I hope this helps, & I hope you're feeling better soon! Stay strong! Symps
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