Lynz

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  • Birthday 14/08/88

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  1. I have these worries to an extent. I've found the only thing to do is challenge yourself all the time basically. So if you worry about getting an allergic reaction from a certain food then eat it and don't avoid it. Keep eating it again and again until you learn not to fear it anymore. The same with medication too.
  2. Honestly if it was me and I wanted to try for a baby I wouldn't drink just to be on the safe side. Alcohol stays in your system for a couple of days anyway. I've just read your posts to my partner and he can't believe your fiance places you drinking as a higher priority than creating the safest biological conditions for conceiving a child in. Surely his main priority should be your own comfort and happiness. Not trying to guilt trip you into drinking just because it makes him uncomfortable around friends if you don't. And I don't know why your friends are so judgemental either. The last time we went out my partner couldn't drink because he was on antibiotics. Our friends didn't care. I know we have a problem with drink culture and peer pressure in our society but really, if you don't want to drink then just don't?
  3. It is definitely the freaking out aspect of this which is a problem for you. Many people count steps etc. in fact, I wear a fitbit so I can count my steps. I try and walk the recommended 10,000 steps a day but if I don't manage this for whatever reason I just think "oh well" and that's it. I imagine that is what most people do as well. Also, where this is a compulsion is that you feel that you have to count obsessively otherwise you will feel anxious or think something bad will happen.
  4. It is a medical recommendation that you shouldn't drink while trying to conceive, so if it was me I would just go with that advice if I was trying to conceive and leave it at that. I don't understand why your fiance is so mad at you if you don't want to drink. Surely he wants you to have a healthy conception and pregnancy? Lots of people don't drink for a variety of reasons and it's no big deal. I personally don't drink because I don't enjoy the taste of alcohol and never have done. So when I'm out I just order soft drinks and nobody cares.
  5. You name the compulsion and I guarantee I did it. It was relentless. I've found an old thread of mine that I posted when I had it quite bad. There's some good advice in there from other forum users - If you can't afford therapy then definitely check out that book I recommended. It's a lifesaver.
  6. This was my main obsession for 3 years and I can honestly say out of all of the obsessions I've had over the years that was the worst one. Like with yours mine came on very suddenly. I was reading an article in the news about a transgender person who had just came out, and I remember having the intrusive thought "omg what if I'm really transgender?", when like you prior to this I had no worries regarding that at all. It was the intensity of this obsession which was the reason I sought out therapy, as up until then I'd been managing (or not managing!) my OCD on my own. I was greatly helped by CBT and ERP from an OCD specialist and I can now say I'm 99% recovered from this obsession. Have you had any CBT therapy before? If not I recommend you look into it, as like I said I struggled and suffered greatly with this obsession for 3 years before I sought help, 3 years which were effectively wasted because I left it so long to get help. If you can't access therapy then a brilliant self-help book is "Break Free from OCD". I use that now intermittently to refresh myself of the techniques I have learnt and to try and keep myself symptom free.
  7. Louise whereabouts in Ireland are you based? There are some support groups in Dublin who may be able to put you in touch with specialist therapists. Obviously if you can't get to Dublin then that will be tricky. I'm wondering if @Ashley knows of any organisations or contacts in Ireland that can help? Would you consider Skype calls with a private therapist? Obviously I don't know what your financial situation is like in terms of being able to afford private treatment but it is something to consider. Ashley may be able to recommend therapists in Ireland, or if not in Ireland who can do Skype calls. What meds are you taking at the moment? Hang in there x
  8. Why on earth would someone not speak to you because you are taking treatment for a medical condition? That is incredibly childish, controlling and ignorant and it has made me so angry hearing about that. I don't know who the person is, whether it is a parent, sibling, or partner, but I categorically WOULD NOT put up with that kind of behaviour. I understand how difficult it must be to not have any support when going through this. But I wonder why you came off the SSRIs when you were happy and symptom free when on them. I often wonder if people feel like they "should" come off them due to a stigma of being on antidepressants. You would not advise anybody with a physical health condition to come off their medication if it is obvious that they are keeping you well and symptom free. I agree with what everyone has said about CBT being the main treatment, but if escitalopram allowed you to function normally, be happy and symptom free then I simply don't understand why being on it is such a bad thing. There are many people who stay symptom free from OCD after taking meds and having therapy, and when the therapy has finished they keep taking the meds so they remain symptom free. There is no need to be some kind of martyr here. If the meds work, then take them!
  9. Healthcare does cost a lot unfortunately. We are lucky in this country in that we have the NHS to pay for most things. For example if we were to pay for an operation ourselves it would cost well into the hundreds of thousands of pounds. I think just to have a baby costs a similar amount but we don't think about any of this cos the NHS pays it all. It only becomes more apparent how expensive healthcare is when we have to go private, usually for mental health treatment when the NHS provision is not as good.
  10. I think the prices reflect their level of expertise and education. If they are private they will also have their own costs to pay such as registration fees, rent, utility bills etc. for the buildings they are in and their own staff such as secretaries to pay as well. They cost a similar amount on the NHS too it's just that the NHS pays the bill rather than the patient.
  11. Well I used to think my "pure O" was a special, more untreatable type of OCD. I spent years trying to find "the right" treatment for it because I was convinced it wasn't "normal OCD". I know differently now of course.
  12. I agree. Also I've found that most people who say they suffer from pure O have physical compulsions anyway, but they are just more subtle. I'd love to see the term phased out as it is a real barrier to treatment when you think you have this special case of OCD that the CBT books don't talk about.
  13. I'm afraid Paul McKenna wouldn't be able to help. Hypnosis doesn't work for OCD. As PB says the only treatment shown to work is CBT with or without meds. I understand the urge to find a miracle quick-fix solution but unfortunately for OCD this doesn't exist. However the good news is that if you work hard at doing CBT then you will see significant improvements or even a complete remission of symptoms.
  14. I agree with Caramoole 100%. I thought I could manage my OCD on my own for years like you have done, Saz. But it eventually got too much and I reluctantly went to my GP and got referred for CBT. The CBT changed my life however and I really regret not starting therapy sooner.
  15. I honestly don't think it's fair to the people who have spent loads of time and effort in producing detailed replies to help you Saz (and others going through similar issues) if this thread is just deleted and all of their hard work is gone. I understand the urge you have to run away from everything. This thread is forcing you to confront your OCD which is generating anxiety, but the only way to beat OCD is to confront it head on and not run from it. Not facing up to it is what has led to you being stuck for all of these years. Deleting the thread would be an attempt to push the anxiety from your mind, but as we all know, trying to push the anxiety and the thoughts away is counterproductive.