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Lawrie

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    Dogs, Music, Theatre, DIY, Interior Design

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  1. Hi There :original: Please don't worry about why a risk assessment was completed. It's a standard piece of paperwork which psychiatric nurses must carry out on anyone they are working with. It helps them to identify potential risk to the safety of the person or others and agree measures with you to keep you safe. Sometimes, when no risk is identified, they will not speak with you about measures to keep you safe as there's no need. Don't worry - absolutely everyone will have had a risk assessment completed who is involved with CMHT.
  2. Hi Leigh :original: And there is the problem right there. I know, you know, anyone reading this knows that you have OCD. You have a condition which creates doubt in even the most black and white situations. Looking back on some of my OCD fears, I am utterly astounded that they felt so damn real at the time. It is this doubt and our need for absolute certainty which drives and feeds our OCD. So, it seems obvious - prove beyond doubt that this ridiculous belief isn't true right? Wrong!!! OCD is never a condition to be silenced with rational thought. Why? Yep - because it is the master of creating doubt. And here is the biggest sting - the more we try to rationalise, the more power we give to OCD to continue creating this doubt. So, you "constantly trying to prove I'm not one" is exactly what is keeping the beast fed. Accept you will never, ever make yourself feel better for trying to prove OCD wrong. You will make yourself feel more and more anxious and cement the belief even further. Have faith that you believe this because you have OCD and not because you are a risk to children. Accept that OCD will mean you will have intrusive thoughts about the risk you pose to children. It really is true - it's just a thought. Let the thoughts rattle about in your head but don't engage any more with them. They are insignificant thoughts - that's all :original: Lxx
  3. Hope Andy has now finally proved all his doubters wrong :o) He destroyed the best player in the world! Just needed to come back and say that lol

    1. whitebeam

      whitebeam

      Nice to see you here, Lawrie - hope you're OK

    2. Lawrie

      Lawrie

      Hey Penny - a little bumpy at the moment as have a lot of stressors at the one time. We'll get there though! Hope you and yours are all wellx

  4. Oh Sesa - what an awful thing to happen. Of course he's "not just a cat" - he was a member of your family and it's only right and normal to mourn your loss. I have lost two cats and two dogs in the last 2 years of old age and have been utterly devastated. It has actually felt as though my heart was physically breaking. But, as cliche as it sounds, in time I am able to look back and feel blessed to have been owned by them. I can look back and smile at the memories...and, yes, I sometimes still cry. So, allow yourself to mourn - give yourself that permission but know that the rawness of your grief will pass in time. Big hugs to you xxx
  5. With all due respect Hayley, you need to look beyond your world and your own experiences. Negative publicity is never and will never be an acceptable route to education. Yes, so you've had media interviews out of it. Great. But that doesn't compensate for the one person it has stopped from seeking treatment, the one person who now doesn't feel able to speak to their loved ones about it or the one person that took their own life for fear of being judged. It is never acceptable to misrepresent any illness be it physical or mental. It is simply discrimination.
  6. How ridiculous are those photographs. I know what I would tell the person to do with their feather duster if they asked me to pose in such a way. The celeb comments really irritate.
  7. Oh I see! :lol: Doh Sorry about that Struggling - think I can use this as an excuse to have a wee afternoon nap - I am clearly sleep deprived :lol:
  8. Sorry, I'm not sure I understand. If your fear of phone lines is preventing you from discussing your OCD with family, then the problem is actually the phone line isn't it?
  9. Oh this worry takes me back it really does. In my early 20's, I had a terrible obsessive fear about the phone. I feared phone lines were not secure, I had left the phone off the hook and people could hear me - at one stage, I actually thought my phone was bugged! At the time, it really felt a legitimate fear. Now, I can see how absolutely ludicous my anxieties were. OCD will always create doubt - it is the one things it needs for survival. However, there are things we do which act as fuel. For example, checking your car for scratches is a highly calorific snack for OCD! Sorry for the analogy but I try to imagine my OCD as a little gremlin that I can either feed or starve. Remember, a thought only becomes an obsession when we pay it attention and add importance to it. As for the phone - I know that you know that it's OCD. You're posting it here after all. You have recognised it for what it is. So, what's the problem? Yep - that tiny, eency, weency bit of doubt. OCD is fighting for survival right now - trying to force your hand to feed it. The first step is creating that little bit of doubt...little bit of anxiety...the more you give it attention, avoid using the phone, check the phone is back on the receiver, relive conversations as to what you said....the more you feed it and the stronger it grows. As uncomfortable as it sounds, the only way to starve this completely is to expose yourself to using the phone. Always, after each call, resisting the urge to engage in feeding OCD. It does work - trust me :original:
  10. Will keep an eye out - I usually let comments about OCD wash over me and am not without a sense of humour when it comes to my own OCD. However, this is the most demeaning show I have seen in relation to OCD and I am prepared to take a stand :original:
  11. What an absolute ridiculous piece of nonsense. How can a person be considered improved when you are engaging in the one thing treatment would focus on you disengaging with!! I know there are some on this forum who do not feel the same level of outrage. I work with mental healthcare professionals and,without a shadow of a doubt, OCD remains the mental health condition which is understood least. I can guarantee that I hear, more than ever, "I am a bit OCD about that". The reason we hear it more? Because of the ridiculous portrayal of OCD in the media. Perhaps C4 could consider further derogatory, demeaning and discriminatory shows with the following suggestions; * a battle between two people in a manic state to see who can spend the most money in one hour. If someone is in the throes of a manic episode (which will cause them much distress and shame as they recover from this), let's make sure they can buy lots of nice things in the process to admire during the periods of shame and resultant depression * a head to head with two schizophrenics as to who's voices can come up with the most amusing joke - a live audience with a clapometer could judge. If someone hears voices, let's try to encourage them to be amusing! * a reinactment of a battle scene with an individual with PTSD - great for audience participation who could play the part of the enemy and really get a flavour for the individuals distress * a show where a person with OCD, instead of engaging in repeated rituals in their home in an attempt to relieve horrendous anxiety, could be put to good use by cleaning a home which is actually dirty! Oh wait, C4 have already mastered the latter. But really, does it look any more ridiculous than the other 3? Incidentally, I am in tears just finding a way to illustrate comparibles by coming up with the others. I feel ashamed of myself for ridiculing conditions which can be life destroying. I was almost tempted to spend some time constructing a "ridiculous suggestions" list for C4 to illustrate the comparibles with OC Cleaners, but I simply cannot do so for the feeling of shame that accompanies this task. This programme is in direct contrast of recovery in mental health. What they are portraying is a person entrapped by mental health. They should be ashamed of trying to highlight the programme as showing life after mental health. The intent of the programme is not to challenge stigma but to generate laughs and resulting viewing figures. Hang your head in shame.
  12. I only managed 15 minutes. Dreadful programme. It is utterly appaling that, rather than focus on how to support an individual overcome OCD, money is invested to support people to collude with this illness. That said, I struggled to identify true OCD in some individuals. One common feature we all have is the knowledge our illness is irrational and a longing to live our lives free from OCD. I heard one person saying they felt everyone should live life as they did. Not usually a feeling common amongst OCD sufferers. Have they any idea that, for a sufferer of OCD, treatment focuses on preventing our responses to anxiety. That is, the exact opposite to "putting us to good use". In essence, they are disabling a person further by this ridiculous concept. It is extremely sad that this discriminatory show has been allowed to be broadcast. C4 are making great progress in stigmatising individuals with disabilities - shows such as The Undateables, Supersize v Superskinny....let's raise our viewing figures and raise a laugh at the same time. Let's all point and laugh at the folk with a disability. OCD is just another disability on their hit-list.
  13. I work with health professionals - I, at least once a month, am told a person is a "bit OCD" about keeping their paperwork tidy or some other similar nonsense. So, no...don't credit people with seeing this show as light entertainment. Am about to watch it for the 1st time....deep breath
  14. I used Solgar Niacin but the flushing side effect was absolutely unbearable. I have never experienced anything like that it my life and it was totally unpleasant! My understanding of Inositol (if that is what is the active ingredient in the flush free), it is required to be taken in exceptionally high doses.
  15. Hey Cub :original: I don't think anyone in a million years will consider you a bad person in any way. You clearly know that this is OCD at work - the familiar anxiety of will God somehow disapprove of your actions. I am not a religious person but I know how OCD works. So, what I will never do is to reassure you as to how God will react or quote parts of the bible. That's not the answer in these situations. The answer is to have confidence that it is OCD driving this anxiety. My advice would be to repost your story. Know that OCD will generate feelings of anxiety - expect this to happen and don't fear it. The anxiety is not a sign of danger or anything you need to react to. It is a sign that your OCD is pulling it's trump card of anxiety to try and force you to react. You can do this! L x
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