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About SallyB

  • Birthday 02/07/1966

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  1. Definitely! For the last 6 months I have been swimming before work almost every morning and that has really helped! Then a month ago I joined a women's running club which is great - it is a challenge and the people who I run with are really lovely! However, the activity that stopped any OCD in it's tracks for a whole half-hour was a Boxing lesson I had a couple of weeks ago. It was a free taster session with a personal trainer and was brilliant - not only did I really have to concentrate, it was physically very hard work (my face didn't cool down for at least 2 hours!). If I could afford it I would definitely pay for sessions as it was so good! Having said that I have found that exercise helps me with my depression. That's why I started in the first place - it focuses me, uses my muscles and I find that I fancy healthy food when I go regularly - so altogether I've lost some of my middle-aged spread as I am eating well too! Sally
  2. I do - although with me I tend to use the wrong word or just say a word randomly. I went for an interview a couple of weeks ago and just randomly said 'four' at the beginning. The interviewer (who was really lovely) immediately replied 'five' whilst I was trying to say that I don't know why I said it. Sometimes I also say completely the wrong word - I substituted the word 'cucumber' instead of 'computer' when talking to a customer recently - don't know why it happens but guess it's because my head is so busy with OCD rubbish that sometimes I get it wrong. All I do is try to laugh it off - it doesn't mean that I'm not crying inside but it shows I know I've said the wrong thing and acknowledges it!! I try not to worry about it too much as that makes it worse - just laugh it off as a random moment!! Sally
  3. I would just like to add that Neil sent his talk to my parents-in-law and they have just listened to it and said that it was really illuminating. It's been really difficult for me having OCD as I feel that Neil's parents would feel that he would be better off with someone who is 'normal'. However they made the effort to listen to his talk and found it interesting - I guess what I'm saying is that these are the last people I would expect to understand mental illness but I am really pleasantly surprised - there is hope out there. Sally
  4. Well done you! I am so pleased that such a wrong has been put right! Sal x
  5. "Make or break"?

    Cub, This has happened to me - both when I was doing my degree and when I did a post-grad diploma. At the time I knew I was anxious and having panic attacks but I didn't know about having OCD. I didn't feel that I had a choice about continuing with both courses - my degree was my second try at studying after I had to leave my first degree following a family crisis, the Post grad diploma was funded by my work and I would have had to repay all my fees etc if I'd dropped out. I continued and finished both courses, but did have a lot of anxiety with both. I am glad that I did finish both courses as I hate to think that OCD has beaten me - but really if you are going to continue then I would recommend that you get some kind of support. I didn't and that made it so much more difficult. I don't think that anyone can make the decision about this for you - you will need to decide it for yourself. The way I decide really difficult things like this is working out the pros and cons - and also how much I have invested in it, as opposed to what is left to do. Do you need your qualification to gain entry into the career you want? There are many things to consider and please do consider them before making a 'knee-jerk' reaction to avoiding the anxiety - as that is what the OCD will want. I nearly did this, but am glad I didn't. Sally
  6. medication

    Bruces, Do you not have to go back to your GP anyway to review it? They normally only let you have a certain number of repeat prescriptions before asking you to go in for a review - or that's what they do with me anyway. Do you feel that the medication is not working? Or you have side-effects? If so then I should make an appointment with your GP as soon as possilbe. If you are getting along ok with it then you might want to wait until you need to review it. It depends really what you want from a review - do you want more help (eg CBT referral or a change of medication) or do you think you could now start weaning yourself off it? If you have any questions/concerns at all I would go back to your GP as soon as you can - that's what they are there for. If they feel it necessary then they may refer you to a psychiatrist but you would need to talk to your GP first (as far as I am aware) Sally
  7. That's a really difficult one. I come from a background with really difficult parents where I was the black sheep and never really measured up. I think that the key for me is to recognise that my mother is just one person with one opinion - and that I don't agree with her opinion of me. Have you friends that could tell you what they feel are your good points? Or another relative? Try to save up all the lovely things that people say to you and say them to yourself when others are saying things that are thoughtless or hurtful. She really is only one person with one opinion - it does not mean she is right. Sally
  8. TangoGirl, Please don't take this comment of your mum's to heart - I know it is difficult, but I also know that each of us has something indivdual and special to bring to the world - and your mum obviously cannot recognise that. I hate having OCD but because I have it I have talked to other people who suffer from it and offered them some hope - in that I live a 'relatively normal life'. I know that I don't achieve what I could achieve or live a full life - as there are so many things that I find difficult, but I do the best with what I have and I try to treat others with a generosity of spirit and kindness - that is often sent back to me in bundles. What I am trying to say to you is - OCD is a struggle, it makes us behave in ways that others do not understand. However that means we are knowledgeable about difficulties and can be more understanding of others or have skills and experiences that others do not have which make us really special. Things are horrible for you at the moment but they will get better - you will learn to deal with the ogre OCD and you will be a stronger person as a result. Just keep trying. Take care Sally
  9. Sick of newbies?

    cazmelody, I wonder if your GP could write a letter to your school to explain your illness and what you find difficult. I know how hard it is to get across to others how distressing OCD is and it's not just a case of 'snapping out of it' Having said that - I know from my experience that some people will never really understand. I wonder if there is one teacher/person at school who is receptive and can be a support for you whilst you are at school. Maybe this person could intervene if others are not as understanding? What you need is some kind of support for when you are struggling - for example a key understanding person at school/a friend, someone you can phone when things get tough... There are people out there who will help and will try to understand so don't feel you are alone. Sally
  10. Meds have been a lifesaver for me. I am currently on 60mg of paroxetine and 20mg of clomipramine. This combination works well for me in terms of keeping depression at bay, helping me sleep and lowering my anxiety. I was desperate and suicidal when I first started on medication and it really did save me. I have managed to continue working (with a blip last year when I had 3 months off with work related depression) throughout my life and don't think I would be still able to lead a 'relatively' normal life without these drugs. Sally PS Having said that I did put off having medication for a long time and only took it because I was so desperate and couldn't cope.
  11. When I went to the GP I wrote a list of what I wanted to say - and also took my husband with me in case I couldn't say what I wanted to. So if you feel you need props when you go then go for it - a friend in the waiting room, or the printed list from the main OCD website might be really helpful when trying to explain your symptoms. Sally
  12. I think that's why I would have found it so difficult to attend - I feel guilty enough about what I put him through without listening to it first ahnd! He is a funny old stick though - I think that's what keeps us going! Been together for 18 years next month and married for 14 next week! Sally
  13. I would like to say how helpful this conference was. My husband spoke at it and took his best friend along as support. It has helped my husband so much as his friend now has a much greater understanding of OCD and how my condition affects him. I didn't go as I couldn't get the time off work, but Neil said that this enabled him to say things that he wouldn't have said if I had been there. Plus there is the networking side of meeting others who suffer in the same way but trying to support those close to them with OCD, which must be horrendous for them. But meeting others facing the same difficulties can be so helpful. Anyway, I guess I'm saying thankyou to Ash and the team for organising this as it has helped Neil and myself already just by us talking about what Neil said in his talk, how his friend reacted, and what others said on the day. Hopefully there were others that found it helpful in the same way. Thankyou! Sally
  14. There was an episode of Scrubs that was quite good that covered OCD. Plus of course Monk had the main character with OCD!
  15. NLP

    I had NLP treatment for my OCD and it helped me hugely - however the person who helped me was brilliant and was trained to Master Practitioner level the long way - not the Paul Mckenna way! The most helpful thing I found is that NLP accepts your 'view of the world' so there was no judgement of what I thought, what I did etc and I found that hugely liberating, especially when one of my recurrent OCD thoughts is that I want to kill myself (these are not suicidal thoughts but OCD obsessions). I still have difficulties but being able to vocalise my 'weird' thoughts without judgement was a livesaver for me. Sally