Unsurechap

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  1. go and enjoy your weekend and drink if you feel like it. the answer is not black and white and medical advice will always err on the side of caution. but how many people have gotten pregnant when under the influence and it has not caused them any problems. the human body is an amazing thing for what it can withstand, i think you should go and do what you want this weekend......
  2. Thanks lish. I appreciate your comments and support.
  3. Thanks lish. Feeling a general unease that I can't quite put my finger on what's wrong but decided to take the leap of faith and put the effort into not providing myself with reassurance and compulsions. Taking the risk that I may never know for sure for 100% what my sexuality is.
  4. I get what people are saying. I have a 'gay' thought and as long as I have a disgust or a negative reaction of some sort I feel ok. But that's a compulsion when I try to have no reaction at all my brain wants me to wince or grit my teeth and I need to teach my brain that it needs to not react at all and I go about my day. I wondered why I wasn't feeling much anxiety with my OCD but I feel the anxiety when I don't react to a thought like if I don't have a negative reaction it must mean I like the thought and this am gay. But that's what I need to do is just not react in anyway shape or form and over time my brain will stop sending the difficult thoughts as it gets no reaction from me. This may be a big breakthrough for me and I'm very determined to not react.
  5. Thanks pb. Good advice I'll try though it's difficult as it feels like a natural disgust reaction to the thoughts.
  6. i think thats the difference between a sexually pleasant thought and an intrusive one, the intrusive one makes me screw my face and clench my teeth, and no arousal happens, but i hate the fact i can even imagine myself doing certain acts - mind you the imagination knows no bounds.....
  7. thanks. its a case of 'if only they knew what was going through my mind, they'd be horrified'. then theres the you are just in denial and not accepting you are gay thought. i've been doing some exposure to my thoughts - flooding myself with my thoughts that bother me and trying to stay with it for half an hour of just pure exposure to my gay thoughts and not reassuring myself or replacing thoughts - it leaves me curled up in a ball and grimacing - though my worst fear is that exposing myself to gay sexual thoughts would bring about some form of sexual arousal, it doesnt, which is good news for me.....
  8. Lish, its good to know i'm not alone. my intrusive thoughts been bad today, not pleasant when you are in business meetings and your thoughts are inappropriate!! wish it was easier.....
  9. its not easy but i'm trying. gonna do some exposure to on my way home from work. busy train station plenty opportunity for intrusive sexual thoughts.............
  10. good for you david that you got out in spite of your fears. one step at a time you will find that you can cope and that nothing bad is likely to happen.....
  11. Am currently going cold turkey and not giving in to any mental reassurance cause i've discovered i am getting nowhere fast. So it no reassurance of sexuality for me, and a focus on the present, mindfullness and relaxation. I've being trying really hard to not do any thinking or ruminating on the subject this afternoon and am avoiding internet searches apart from googling how to not do compulsions, so far so good. Damn it but i so desperately want to engage my brain and think but have so far managed pretty well. i see it as actually a little challenge to myself turning it into a competition as to how long i can go without reassuring myself, checking or testing. I can break this cycle i know and i'll get there. this ****** disorder is not going to break me..........
  12. Does anyone with their OCD have a urge to do something inappropriate like somehow you want to do something and carry out an act that you don't actually like? i guess what i'm saying is that having thoughts is one thing, but what happens when you have an urge to carry something out? Can OCD give you urges to do something wrong.....
  13. I've had some nhs help but not much. Have private therapy. No therapy really on NHS available.
  14. if it helps i'm also in scotland, so nearby too!! yeh depression is a killer.....