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  1. Woke up with a stinking migraine today and feeling really sick with it☹️ so just laid up at mo ☹️

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    2. daja

      daja

      Hope you are feeling better Lost if not get well soon!

    3. lostinme

      lostinme

      Thank you both for your kind wishes, I'm not feeling great but it's been a bad day in all☹️

    4. Phili

      Phili

      I know that feeling, migraines are hell and you can’t take an anti nausea tablet because you can’t keep it down and that goes for pain meds as well. Fresh air helps a lot for migraines, just sitting by the window can help. I don’t know if you are the same but mine is affected by pressure on the spine and sitting and or laying down makes it worse. Ice packs on the head help.

  2. It's a difficult time for me at the moment, everything is up in the air. So many things to worry about and more just keep coming, life can be so unfair at times and it's hard :(

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    2. lostinme

      lostinme

      Thank you storm, hope your ok xx

       

    3. lostinme

      lostinme

      Thank you all for all your kind sincere messages. Hope everyone is doing ok and keeping well xx

    4. lostinme

      lostinme

      Thank you Roy as always for your much appreciated advice, your always there no matter what hardships you face yourself and that in itself is phenomenal, not sure that's the right word but you know my grammar lol. I would PM you becauce I've always regarded you to be a trusted friend but I think you have enough going on right now without any added extras. Thank you as always lost x

  3. Phew just arrived home from holiday and feeling pretty exhausted, could do with another one to get over this one :lol:

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    2. daja

      daja

      Did you have a staycation Lost or did you go abroad?

    3. lostinme

      lostinme

      Thanks gbg and daja I had a lovely time. We visited Wales and it was alot of walking but it was really nice but very tiring :)

    4. daja

      daja

      Sounds nice Lost. ? 

  4. When all you need is a really good friend, someone you can really talk to, someone who can just listen and be non judgemental to hopefully understand and see your struggles and hardships that you've faced and are still facing. To be able to really open up to someone and for them to listen to how you feel not only in your mind but also what's felt in your heart. It takes time to trust someone to really open up and tell them what's really going on inside and explain your hardships and the things that eat away at you every minute of every day, maybe it's embarrassment or shame and these things are the bigger picture in all the hardships I face now :( 

    1. gingerbreadgirl

      gingerbreadgirl

      Always around if you want a chat lost xx

    2. lostinme

      lostinme

      Thank you gbg, that means alot :) x

  5. Phew what a day I've had, feeling really ill in fact I'd go as far as to say I could go to hospital tonight :( having new guttering fascia fitted etc and if it wasn't bad enough that workers was here and a mess everywhere but also they was breaking down asbestos too which made me really anxious. Good news is I havnt cleaned everywhere from top to bottom and havnt washed my hair or showered again since this morning so feeling proud in myself :yes:

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    2. daja

      daja

      That’s disgraceful.

    3. lostinme

      lostinme

      Yes I know, you would think they would know better :(

    4. daja

      daja

      I think they are just stupid.

  6. When you just wish that you had never been born :( you no sooner pick yourself up that someone is so ready to drag you back down until you don't even know who you are any more

    1. lostinme

      lostinme

      Could someone please delete this status, I was in a very low mood and I shouldn't have wrote this. Sorry lost 

    2. daja

      daja

      Hope you are ok Lost.

    3. lostinme

      lostinme

      Hi daja, I'm ok thanks :) I was feeling very down when I posted this status and should never have posted it. It was a little drastic:blush: but at times we reach out because we just need a little TLC to make us feel better.

      Hope you are doing ok :)

  7. I never get used to being home alone, to be totally honest it petrifies me to death and to make matters even worse I now have a screeching fox on the backs :(

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    2. Avo

      Avo

      I am sorry to hear about the attempted breakins. Its such a low crime to attempt to steal from someones house I really hate people who stoop so low. its a terrible invasion of privacy. There are some very unpleasant people in the world. 

      I am glad your better today, keep fighting . let us know if we can help at all. 

    3. lostinme

      lostinme

      I will Roy, just need to get my mojo back :yes: It's difficult when you fade away into the background and then try to slot back in, it's not so easy :( I like to be the one full of positivity and if I can't offer that I don't feel it's right to offer advice. Don't get me wrong I havnt slipped back just not moved forward either but external issues do hinder that sadly :(

      I keep trying to work hard on this because in a while I will be home alone every night and it's something I have got to get use to.

    4. lostinme

      lostinme

      Thank you Avo, it's a sad world :( do they ever stop and think how this affects a person. I don't think it can bother them because if it did they wouldn't do it.

      I'm not sure if you can help really it's just lots of issues that I need to work through that is hindering my progress at the moment. It's amazing how much negativity impacts on our lives, I would say around 8 months ago I was feeling so positive and it's amazing the difference I felt then to now.

       

  8. When you wish you hadn’t said something and you so wish you could take it back instead your left feeling pretty embarrassed and so foolish ?

    Feelings hey, who wants them :(

    1. taurean

      taurean

      I think we all get this from time to time and, yes, it really sucks :(

       

    2. lostinme

      lostinme

      It is Roy :( some things are better left unsaid :yes:

      It's only sometime later when you realise that your trying to act normal and yet you feel like a jibbeering wreck and your dying of embarrassment inside and not sure how to act and what to say :( 

      Is avoidance the best answer ? In an OCD world it's definitely not :(

  9. Why is it that when I right OCD UK into Google search the Linden method comes to the top of the page now instead ? 

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    2. lostinme

      lostinme

      I think you are right Ashley, it seems to have gone back to normal :) I was just shocked to see it appearing as the first post ? 

    3. Ashley

      Ashley

      If it was the advertising post then they are budgeted to so much a day, so when it's clicked enough times its budget gets used up and it disappears for the day.  Of course, clicking it costs Linden money... not that I would do that :D

    4. lostinme

      lostinme

      No of course not:lol: click away :a1_cheesygrin:

  10. We can never run away from the thoughts in our own minds, but we can learn how to walk along side them :yes:

    1. taurean

      taurean

      Very true lost. :)

       

    2. taurean

      taurean

      I was thinking about this, and it reminded me of an article on using metaphors to handle troublesome thoughts. 

      One was to treat our thoughts as passengers on a bus, with us the driver. 

      When they get to reach nuisance level, we tell them that unless they fall in line and quieten down, they will be thrown off the bus at the next stop. 

      Another one I liked is thinking of upsetting thoughts as waves on a choppy sea. 

      But if we put on SCUBA diving gear, we can dive down beneath the choppy thought waves and discover the calm that lies beneath. 

      You may happen to ask what SCUBA means? Well it's really simple - self-contained underwater breathing apparatus. 

      Is it comfortable breathing underwater with SCUBA gear? Yes it is. I attended a training evening at my private health club and after learning all about the equipment and safely communicating underwater, we got to try the equipment out in the pool. 

      The air is compressed air, same as we breathe on the surface. 

       

  11. Having a bit of a rough time at the moment, definitely feeling I’m on self destruct. You would think I would know better than allow this to happen given all that I’ve learnt. Really hoping it by passes very soon 

    1. taurean

      taurean

      Sending you some support lost :flowers: :group:

       

    2. lostinme

      lostinme

      Thank you Roy, i seem to have lost my positivity at the moment :(

  12. My mind always goes into overdrive by worrying and over castrophising a situation instead of one of concern. My twin sister as been called back for more extensive tests after her mammogram and straight away I'm in panic mode :( 

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    2. lostinme

      lostinme

      Thankyou, it's amazing how different I feel to how I did this morning :)

    3. taurean

      taurean

      Now it shows that we need to try not to be concerned, and go into situations with an open mind. 

      I gave Julie five things to work on  regarding her medical fears and phobias. 

      Go along to please Roy (instead of trying to catch the next train to Brighton) :laugh:

      It will likely not be as bad as you think 

      It will be good when over - forward focus 

      Do not think about it until you have to 

      Apply some dissociation. (pretend it's not happening to her) 

      These have helped her enormously. 

       

    4. lostinme

      lostinme

      Yes a few steps that would do me good to follow :yes:

  13. Hi guys long time no see, I’ve not been very active of late because I’ve had a few ups and downs and I didn’t really feel I had any positive input to offer sadly. I’m still on a bit of a low or perhaps a lot of one to be honest, I’ve had to have six teeth out and a denture fitting and as usual nothing goes straight forward for me and complications always happen, things never seem to go to plan. It’s really knocked my confidence and I’m feeling pretty sorry for myself at the moment but I know things will slowly get better. 

    Hope you are all fit and well and still moving forward. Best wishes always lost x

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    2. taurean

      taurean

      I am so glad you "found" us again lost. 

      I do perfectly well with my denture plate lost, and have had one for years. 

      Hope those other issues "crawl back into their box" and you can "push it back under the stairs" again soon. 

      All the best 

      Roy :king:

    3. taurean

      taurean

      By the way, :flowers2: :fool:

    4. lostinme

      lostinme

      Cheers Roy, they made me smile ? 

      Sorry I must seem really rude, no sooner I dropped in again and then I vanish. It’s been a rough week for me not only had I got continuing issues I’ve also got more issues regarding my extraction so yet another visit to the dentist tomorrow :( Just hoping they can sort it out this time. 

      My daughters father had a heart attack this weekend too, but thankfully after having stents inserted he is doing fine now. Its been a very emotional time especially for my daughter.

  14. Feeling very vulnerable tonight, my dad is really unwell in hospital after suffereing a heart attack and he as also got an infection and severe temp ? 

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    2. Emsie

      Emsie

      That's great news about your doggie, Lost, I hope she/he is even better today.

      Thank you so much for your kind words, it means a lot. I will remind myself of that, thank you....I know you'll never quit, you're such a warrior. Xxx

    3. lostinme

      lostinme

      Your welcome Emsie :)

      We are all stronger than we think, we are all warriors Emsie living our lives with OCD, battling on and never quitting regardless. With all this strength and courage we use daily living with OCD we can use it in a positive way and start to turn things around for the better xx

    4. Emsie

      Emsie

      Thank you so much, Lost. Xxx

  15. Hi guys, hope your all ok and still trying to push yourselves forward :)

    Sorry I’ve been a bit of a stranger recently but I’ve had a few difficulties of my own lately which as you know impacts on our OCD sadly :(

    Good news is I havnt let things slip back but sadly I’m no further forward :(

    It doesn’t feel right answering posts when I’m not in a positive mindset. 

    Take care of yourselves and hopefully I will be back here soon, best wishes as always, lost :)

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    2. taurean

      taurean

      Glad you popped in and updated us lost. Keep going. Roy 

    3. taurean

      taurean

      I am so pleased that you have been able to maintain your gains lost. It's a marathon ? not a sprint, and accepting when we experience setbacks is all part of the journey. 

       

    4. lostinme

      lostinme

      Thank you daja and Roy, your kind words and support always mean a lot :)

      Hope you are both good and keeping well :) 

  16. Merry Christmas ? 

    Hope everyone as had a lovely day :)

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    2. gingerbreadgirl

      gingerbreadgirl

      Happy Christmas lost :) 

    3. lostinme

      lostinme

      Hi Roy it’s been a good but very busy couple of days, spending lots of family time together playing games, drinking and eating way to much. Hoping to find a little relaxing time tomorrow, though I doubt it very much still lots of things planned :)

    4. lostinme

      lostinme

      Thank you daja and gbg, hope it’s been a good one for you too :yes:

  17. Never felt so low and useless as I feel tonight, you build up your positives but then life just throws so many negatives at you, so how do you keep your head above water :(

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    2. lostinme

      lostinme

      Thankyou kindly everyone for all your well wishes :) it will teach me not to over castrophise a situation, the OCD snook in only slightly I think :a1_cheesygrin:? 

    3. gingerbreadgirl

      gingerbreadgirl

      so pleased you're feeling better about things Lost :) xxx

    4. lostinme

      lostinme

      Thank you gbg, it’s crazy how we over react and only see the worst case scenario xx

  18. Hope everyone is ok, I’m not very active at the moment very very busy what with Christmas soon upon us with lots to do and also applying for training courses etc. But thinking of you all and hopefully popping in from time to time.

    All the best as always lost :)

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    2. daja

      daja

      Take care Lost. x

    3. taurean

      taurean

      Have an XMAS present from me, lost, to help you on your way ?

    4. gingerbreadgirl

      gingerbreadgirl

      Really glad you're OK lost :) :) 

  19. When your feeling so torn and broken, that awful feeling in the pit of your stomach that just won’t go away and yet you can’t turn to anyone :( 

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    2. gingerbreadgirl

      gingerbreadgirl

      I'm so sorry to hear you're feeling like this lost :( like avo says, is it anything we can help with? Xx 

    3. taurean

      taurean

      Hope you are a bit better today lost. :flowers: :fool:

    4. lostinme

      lostinme

      Bless you all, I’m feeling a little better today and not so emotional. I think with me not feeling so well I got a little sensitive about my emotions. It’s not really something I feel I can talk to anyone about so hopefully I can put it back to rest again. I’m still ill with my chest so I’ve got to go for an X-ray and my daughter as also got a bad virus that’s made her throat and tongue swell so not a very fit household here :( 

  20. Just love gogglebox :)

    1. gingerbreadgirl

      gingerbreadgirl

      It's brilliant isn't it :D 

  21. Feeling rather poorly today and not doing much at all, yesterday I didn't feel to great with bad pains in my upper back so today I thought it was time for a gp visit because of my reoccurring colds. Got a bad chest infection so probably explains why I've felt rather groggy over the last few days, just hoping the antibiotics kick in quick :(

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    2. lostinme

      lostinme

      Thank you so much for your well wishes gbg and Roy, I’ve not felt to good again today probably the effects of the antibiotics also :( My daughter as come down with a dreaded cold now too so she’s been in bed all day, so not a very healthy household at the moment :(

      Hope you are both well and had a good day x

    3. taurean

      taurean

      It was a good day today and I ended up released to go to the pub. 

      I got back 10 minutes after J's set time on Wednesday and was made to do two "bushtucker trials". 

      Today the cronies team at the pub made sure I left so as to get back before "curfew"  :sweatdrop:

    4. lostinme

      lostinme

      :lol: it sounds like you had a pretty good day in all then :yes:

  22. Going to our local town big switch on today, it sounds as though it will be a great event, music, dancing and soprano singer etc. This will test me being in such a huge crowd but looking forward to it :yes:

    It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas :CarolSingers:

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    2. Avo

      Avo

      Well done for coping with what sounds like a very stressful situation Lost. Maybe the organisers could look at doing things a bit differently next year? it does sound a dangerous situation.

    3. taurean

      taurean

      Where were "Elf" and safety when they were needed?  :rudolph:  

    4. lostinme

      lostinme

      :lol: Roy, that made me chuckle ? 

      I was very proud in myself on how well I coped in the situation, but I think Avo is definetly right I think they need to look at better organisation next year :yes:

  23. Feeling very tired tonight, I was at hospital until 4am this morning with my dad again bless him :( So won’t be long out of bed tonight ? 

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    2. lostinme

      lostinme

      Thank you Avo and BelAnna, he’s doing good, he as had a small operation so fingers crossed all will go well and he doesn’t get sepsis again, that’s the worrying part and sadly this can be quite common with this procedure. 

    3. BelAnna

      BelAnna

      Oh that's good to hear. I hope he doesn't get sepsis this time- that sounded so scary last time but hopefully they will start antibiotics quickly if they need to this time xx

    4. daja

      daja

      Fingers crossed for your Dad Lost.

  24. When your day just goes from bad to worse ? and you just wish you hadn’t bothered getting up ? 

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    2. taurean

      taurean

      "Thats where the mindfulness tools come in very handy running along side the CBT" 

      That's spot on lost. When we switch our mind into focusing right in on what we are doing right now, where we are, in the present, in the moment - it shuts out the other side of the brain (the active "doing" part where all the obsessional thinking, compulsing and the OCD-focusing lens function) and our mind and body relax. 

    3. lostinme

      lostinme

      Exactly Roy it’s a great tool to run along side CBT :yes:

    4. taurean

      taurean

      I think where people go wrong is in the misconception that mindfulness on its own is a treatment for OCD. 

      It wouldn't be - to overcome the OCD we need to learn, and put into practice, CBT. Otherwise the OCD can still fester, worsen, add layers of restrictions. 

      But add the mindfulness to the CBT - as was done by my last therapist - and you acquire a very powerful combination of therapies. 

  25. It’s been a good 3 week therapy wise:yes:

    First week 2 24 hour kettles

    Second week 2 and a half days

    Third week nearly 3 24 hour kettles 

    Slow progress, but still progress, feeling really proud of myself :cheer:

    Never give up guys, change is possible we just need to keep working at it :yes:

    1. taurean

      taurean

      For me the only option to tackle OCD is learn how it works then change our behavioural responses. 

      This can be done with various degrees of difficulty depending on the severity of the problem. 

      But done it must be. And however long the journey to get there, it is a great journey to be travelling. Because the train we are on will emerge from the tunnel into a brighter world, where joy not disorder can be a major player. 

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