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As the title says this is an attempt at a bit of positivity. Not sure were to begin.. I have suffered with ocd for many years i was able to cope (hide it) well until last year when i had a complete melt down. This coincided with me giving up alcohol, cigarettes and my self medicating cigarettes!! This just left me with my thoughts and facing ocd head on, it took me to a really dark place! But luckily i reached out for help this was not an easy thing to do. My gp nice guy and all wasn't much help, i was in the fortunate position that i could go private to a psychiatrist which lead to him prescribing me lots of meds all to no avail! I also had about 20 sessions of cbt this also was no help if anything my condition was getting worse! I was was spiraling down hill fast! The psychiatrist diagnosing me with treatment resistant ocd! And my cbt therapist discharged me as we were getting no where! As i was leaving my last session the therapist said sometimes we just have to accept who we are. I don't know what it was about that comment but something clicked in my head. I realised i was hoping for some magic pill or just turning up to cbt and saying all the right things would make this hell stop! I went home and sat in front of the mirror and looked at myself and thought how did i get in this state!!?? I don't know but i do know i am the only one who can pull myself out of it! Since that day i have been trying to face my fears it is not easy by any means the panic attacks, crippling fear, the doubt, the tears, the urge to just give in but i have fought on! And i feel so much better for it! So guys try to stay positive and always have hope! If i can turn this round anyone can......

Hi, guys has anyone ever been diagnosed with treatment resistant OCD? I have been having CBT on weekly basis both private and NHS for the last 8 months with two great therapists. I have got my OCD at a more mangable level but it still consumes me at times. I had a review with my psychiatrist and he diagnosed me with treatment resistant OCD, his answer for this was more meds (mood stabliers) and continue with CBT. Has anyone ever had any exprience with this?

Hey BelAnna hope your keeping well It sounds like you and your dog have had an awful time. I understand the stress and worry you go thru my little dog is spoilt rotten and rules the house! My main worry is she will get out of the house and get lost which cause's me to check on her constantly if i lose sight of her for two minutes i freak out! Today we have been gardening she has eaten loads of compost and bonemeal this had done her no harm!! She is up causing hell as usaul.

Hey, sorry to hear your having a hard time. I have a minture jack russel and she is always in the wars, since getting her two years ago we have had several drama's she got anaphylactic shock from a balloon of all things while playing in the garden this lead to an emergency trip to the vets. Another time she eat slug pellets in the shed which are lethal to dogs so another emergency vet bill (very large bill). Last week she got a thorn in her paw another trip to the vets. As much as we love our dogs we can't keep an eye on them all the time and trust me if something was wrong with your dog she would let you know. The what if's we suffer with are awful all we can do is to try and live with risk and trust everything will be ok!

I was wondering how peoples OCD has effected their relationships? I have had OCD for 20 years during this time i have struggled with every theme, in last 5 years my main problem has been checking i thought i was coping the best i could. Then in september last year i had a major OCD episode which lead to a complete melt down! Luckly i spoke to my gp before i did something i would regret! This was the first time i seeked help for my OCD i have had a roller coaster time trying diffrent meds which at first made my symptoms alot worse but things are a little calmer now. I have been really struggling with intrusive thoughts of my partner cheating this has been driving me crazy! I told mrs dizzy about this and she is devastated which has caused massive rows and all is not well! We had a good chat last night and when she talked about how my OCD has effected our relationship and how she has put up with my crazy and downright mental behaviour over the years and the general stuff she has had to put up with i was shocked. This awful illness has really taken its toll on us both and i have got to take control before its to late. Just wondering how u guys cope?

Thanks for replying I know meds effect everyone differntly but am just a bit freaked out. I am also worried about just stopping the sertraline and going on to the velafaxine not sure if i will get withdrawl from sertraline. OceanDweller you have me stressed!

I am looking for some advice about meds has anyone ever been prescribed venlafaxine before? I am currently on 200 sertraline and it has done nothing for me so my psychiatrist has prescribed me velafaxine 450 starting off at 300 for two weeks then up the dose to 450. I am a bit worried about taking this! Just wondering has anyone any experence of this med? I am also taking pregabalin 300 per day psychiatrist wants to put this up to 400 also. I am worried i will be like a zombie taking all these tablets! I know meds are not the answer to OCD am currently having cbt but am really struggling at mo. Any advice would be really appreciated

I am so fed up with ocd its so tiring being anxious and stressed all the time! I feel like i never get a minutes peace from my own mind all i want to do is hide in bed from the world. Sorry this is a bit of a rant! Been trying to do my cbt homework but i feel like i don't have any strenght left to fight. My thoughts are taking me to dark places just wish this hell would stop!!!!

Hey, we all face our own battles with this illness everyday and all we can do is dust ourselfs down and try again tomorrow. Stay strong

Hey Marko I have had these injections many times myself you will be fine the procedure takes about ten minutes and the pain is no worse than going to the dentist.

Hey pb thanks for replying. Ruminating is something i really struggle with i started cbt last week and my therapist encouraged me to give my intrusive thoughts names and invite them in but not to engage with them. This has been working but there is two thoughts that really disturb me and get me everytime this leads to endless ruminating everyday. I know i need to work on this as it causes me so much pain.

Today i was busy cleaning up my garden giving the grass its first cut and planting some new plants to brighten the place up. As usual my tsunami of intrusive thoughts was with me every step! I managed not to engage and keep them at arms length this didn't last long tho as soon as i came in from the garden my worst two thoughts attacked me and i was off ruminating for hours searching for the answers i can never find! Usually this would lead me into a full blown panic attack but for once i pulled myself out of it. All calm for now. Hope your all well

Hello everyone hope your all well Bit nervous as this is my first post. Just want to say a big thank you to everyone who posts on here. This forum saved me from a really dark place. Reading all your stories made me realise i am not alone in suffering this awful illness you guys gave me hope to seek help. I have recently been diagnosed with OCD depression and panic attacks. I am still having more bad days than good and really struggling at the minute but thanks to you all i now have hope.