Dixie

I have done a similar thing wth hierarchy for checking I should mention this to my therapist about using it for my contamination issue as Iv not doing the exposure right, it's difficult because I thought I was doing good by being able to make someone a drink, when afterwards I realised not avoiding making a drink was good but Iv acted out a contamination compulsion while doing it. thanks for the advice I will be watching out in the future.

So I'm sorta having a good day today with being able to do things. one part of my OCD is contamination and with somethings I won't touch them even to clean them I will just avoid it, some days like today I am able to touch it (with gloves on) the things Iv been avoiding,I don't understand why some days I can and some days I most definitely can't go near it. I still get the thoughts but iv ignored them (yay),I was even able to make a friend a cup of tea, but this is where the coping mechanisms come in, i am not supposed to be giving in to compulsions, so I make the cup of tea but without touching the tea bag, I feel Iv done good but then think I was able to do it because I didn't touch the tea bag,i feel Iv done wrong by not touching the tea bag because Iv made the situation more bearable for my self when I should be exposing myself to the anxiety. Also I was able to touch things to clean them but only with gloves on again making the situation more bearable. I just find it difficult to constantly expose my self to everything although I no I need to. If anybody has any thoughts on this will be greatly appreciated Dixie

One thing that has helped me with magical thinking is if you turn it around and use it on something positive and not negative it doesn't work, just by thinking I will win the lottery doesn't increase my chancing of winning the lottery,just like thinking I have caused harm doesn't mean I have/ or will. hope that makes sense or helps even just a little.