Hello everyone! I'm currently dealing with a new theme of OCD that I just really cant seem to get ahold of. I've suffered from OCD since I was a child. Some of my themes have been Contamination fears of HIV, compulsive checking and washing, and intrusive thoughts about harming others. These have been tackled, and dealt with for the most part. However this new theme as been extremely exhausting and I feel like I'm alone in handling this.
I keep having these irrational fears that the things I eat or touch will have drugs like LSD or Prescription medication in them or on them. For example; I cant drink my Gatorade in my cooler because its near my moms beers and maybe the alcohol got inside some of my safe drinks. I cant drink caffeine,food left unattended, or anything that doesn't seem like its apart of the food. I cant even go through some drive through anymore because the person inside could have spiked it. I even had a panic attack because a stranger shook my hand, and maybe he was trying to drug me with LSD on his hand. (Which I know is irrational and unrealistic)
I'm seeing a Specialist on OCD on the 4th of April, but I was wondering if there was advice anyone could give me. Maybe some ERP or CBT tips I can do myself in till I go and see her. Also if you've dealt with this theme before, id love to hear your story and how you conquered this. Just knowing I'm not alone in this would bring me Great relief. I'm truly interested in hearing my fellow OCD sufferers and ex sufferers stories.
Can't wait to give my own support to you guys. I truly appreciate you taking your time to read this. -Runescape pleb