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Donnaann21

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  1. I’m waiting for talking therapies through the nhs I think it’s cbt I will mention it to them when it comes through. My mind hasn’t been the same since all of this stress.
  2. I did have some abuse therapy years ago but it was only telling my story and getting it out of me.
  3. I know that it will cause a cycle of confessing again if I did it, I had a lot of trauma after breaking up that relationship and I think the stress has brought my ocd back on. When will it leave my head? And not be so prominent stuck there? Like I’m desperate to just confess it to get rid of the anxiety. Thank you for your reply as well I really appreciate it.
  4. My obsession is just stuck in my head and won’t go away until I say it I feel like crying.
  5. I wouldn’t put you in a category as a child killer we all did stupid things as a kid, that’s how we learn what’s right and wrong.
  6. Iv had a lot of stress the last 9 months since breaking up a toxic relationship and post separation abuse, I’m with a new partner now who I love and Iv started asking reassurance about things again, I was abused as a child and Iv told him that but Iv been obsessing over the things i used to do when I was little, like I used to reenact the abuse by using two barbie dolls on each other and I used to say these made up words whilst i was doing it, and I’m so embarrassed by it in my mind and it’s stuck there at the front of my head and I can’t get rid of it, I don’t want to speak about it I just want to put it in the past, but my mind is telling me it’s important and I must seek reassurance and confess it to my partner, as it’s causing me extreme anxiety. It makes me cringe thinking about it. And my brain ie telling me that it’s important to mention it. I feel like I need to confess every detail of my past. Why has it become an obsession? I was crying today as it’s stuck in my head and im scared it won’t go away. I know if i confess this I will start the cycle off again and my mind will think of just another thing to confess afterwards. But my ocd is saying just say it and it will get rid of the anxiety.
  7. Thank you it’s like in my mind is trying to think of a way to say things (confess in a jokey way just to get it out of my head and gain reassurance) like analysing which way I could say things and reassuring myself a lot in my head that things are ok and Iv done nothing wrong. And then il feel better and it comes back in again and il have to reassure myself again And then il analyse it and try solve it in my head and it’ll say well you could just confess it this way or that way. And it sticks in my brain again. It’s so hard.
  8. I have a new partner now, as a broke up with my ex of 24 years who was controlling and my ocd has really badly flared up again and I’m confessing minor details to my new partner of things Iv done in my life that are pretty much minor but I feel like if I don’t they will stick in my head forever, I haven’t had this problem for a while and it’s just suddenly come back worse, I think it’s a lot of stress Iv had. But my mind keeps saying you need reassurance about this and that and things that you’ve done that might have been wrong or immoral to gain reassurance that things I did were ok and not wrong. It’s like I need to confess every detail of my life and things I may have done wrong. I know if I confess it is just to rid me of the anxiety and uncertainty nothing else. It’s burning a hole in my brain to tell him stuff (things that aren’t even relevant) my mind is looking for any slightest thing I have done to get reassurance it wasn’t wrong. How do I ignore this or deal with it? It’s a been a long time since Iv suffered this bad with it. And I don’t want to confess stuff all the time as I did it yesterday and as soon as I did it another thing popped up in its place so I feel like I have to tell him this also. It feels like a cycle Iv started my confessing again. Fed up
  9. Thank you I think I feel the need to confess because I always feel as though im hiding things from him I can’t even have a random conversation with people without telling him everything it’s like my life isn’t mine anymore. And I feel like if I don’t confess my anxiety will never go away over the things I obsess over they just get stuck in my head for ages. I analyse everything people say like Iv done something wrong.
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