Dreamerr

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  1. Hello Louise1994, In my childhood I went through this touching and counting OCD thing. I had to touch things with my bouth hands, and count things for a certain number of times. Feeling extremely guilty about everything is also common in OCd, it is what I am dealing with now. However only your psychiatrist can diagnose it. You should talk to your psychiatrist about your concerns. I hope you get better.
  2. Thank you all for the support. That is exactly what my rational self thinks. I just wish that this rational part of me was stronger than the OCD part. It is just guilt and guilt and guilt, this is what I feel... But I will try, somehow.
  3. OCD feelings and thoughts are the opposite of what you really are. I'm sure you've heard it many times. The urges come because you are afraid of geting them them and hearing children triggers the fear. I know what you feel and that is horrible. The only thing that helped me was not paying atention to those thoughts and feelings, just leting them be and saying to my self that I know what I am and that I am not like that and I am not going to argue with those stupid thoughts anymore. It's easier said then done, I know that.
  4. Hi everyone, I am new to this forum. Was wonderig if enyone is experiensing anything similar to what I'm going through. I had OCD since my childhood. All those intruisive thoughts, they don't bother me anymore like they used to. I just don't care about them because I now know it's my OCD. But now I have this moral OCD. and it's just the worst. I can't pass the homeless without having this urge to give money and if I don't It's like I've made an unforgivable sin and I have to punish myself. And I used to punish my self. For example, I would not listen to music the whole weekend as a punishment or I would not do something else that I enjoy doing. But I was strong enough to stop doing even that and I thought I was really beating this freaking OCD. Unfortunately a month ago this thought came to my mind. There is this woman where I live, she helps people that have health issues by non traditional methods. And now I feel like I have to tell all the sick people I get to know about that there is this woman. Email them, call them, whatever, even if they live in another part of the world (tell me it is crazy, cause I don't know anymore) . Even on the street, if I see someone that might need help I feel like I have to run to them and tell them. I don't want to do it, but then I think what if God wants me to do it, and then I think, if he wanted me to do it he would let me know it and it would not make me suffer. I don't know what to do, I can't live my live because of this. I want to convince myself that I can not save the world and that I have to think about my self for once, but I just can't. I cry, I want to scream I feel so much anger and then guilt just because of this one thought that came to my mind. I lost weight, I just want to lay in bed, this guilt is kiIling me.I feel like I'm on a mission. But how can this be the right thing to do when it mekes me suffer so much. It feels like I'm in hell now and I feel so guilty. Moral OCD is just unbearable mostly because it doesn't feel like OCD, it feels like the right thing to do, but somehow feels so wrong if you know what I mean. I guess I just need someone to tell me that it is OCD. Did anyone have anything like this? Or does anything I wrote sound rational? I would appreciate all the answers. Thank you all.