Jump to content

weirdguy194

Bulletin Board User
  • Posts

    3
  • Joined

  • Last visited

Previous Fields

  • OCD Status
    Sufferer

Profile Information

  • Gender
    Male

Recent Profile Visitors

The recent visitors block is disabled and is not being shown to other users.

  1. Its much better since I posted thank you for help, it indeed feels like hell but I'm going through this...
  2. Sorry I posted at wrong forum at first, this ocd wants me to blow my brains out, seriously... EVERY TIME when a good thing happens for me, I start to believe that OCD gave me some kinda advantage for it. Well lets say I get the thought while computer is loading, I must not think bad thoughts while it's loading, otherwise I will have to restart it until it feels "just right" if I don't do that I feel like computer is "contaminated" and gives me advantage against other people (let's say in video games, etc). Or, if I'm walking and I get the thought, I must go one step back without thinking about it, just so it feels "right". Let's say I was going to super market yesterday and I got this thought, I didn't do one step back to "undo", I felt way too anxious but I kept it. Now, let's say a good thing happened to me, my brain is thinking like: it's all OCD, you didn't earn it, you got it just because you didn't "undo" the thought, I feel like I used "cheats" in real life, you get the point? I'm fair person and it makes me really anxious. Thoughts I get are really disgusting, it's like incest thoughts with person which is dead now, I'm trying my best to think about them so they goes away, going good so far but anxious... Please guys suggest me what to do... I am trying to fight this, but recently I'm feeling way too anxious, but I'm not giving up...
  3. EVERY TIME when a good thing happens for me, I start to believe that OCD gave me some kinda advantage for it. Well lets say I get the thought while computer is loading, I must not think bad thoughts while it's loading, otherwise I will have to restart it until it feels "just right" if I don't do that I feel like computer is "contaminated" and gives me advantage against other people (let's say in video games, etc). Or, if I'm walking and I get the thought, I must go one step back without thinking about it, just so it feels "right". Let's say I was going to super market yesterday and I got this thought, I didn't do one step back to "undo", I felt way too anxious but I kept it. Now, let's say a good thing happened to me, my brain is thinking like: it's all OCD, you didn't earn it, you got it just because you didn't "undo" the thought, I feel like I used "cheats" in real life, you get the point? I'm fair person and it makes me really anxious. Thoughts I get are really disgusting, it's like incest thoughts with person which is dead now, I'm trying my best to think about them so they goes away, going good so far but anxious... Please guys suggest me what to do... I am trying to fight this, but recently I'm feeling way too anxious, but I'm not giving up...
×
×
  • Create New...