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Thankyou JennieWren They do know about my ocd but I think they just think it’s something that can easily be stopped I think maybe lack of knowledge. I wish it was that simple. I just wish I could turn back time. I hate the feeling I have of constantly being anxious I don’t want to lose him so I have to do the compulsions just incase. I love my little family and need to protect them.

Thanks PolarBear. Im in a constant anxious state at the moment and feel new things are popping up all the time. Just found out last month that my husband has been having an affair for 2 years ? I’m sure this has sent my Ocd into overdrive. We are staying together and working it out but I am now constantantly paranoid. As silly as it sounds I line our shoes up in a certain order so nothing happens and maybe I didn’t do it properly just like at work I do certain things, one day I made my self not do it and a friend died that night. I just think maybe I’m jinxed. It’s so tiring and embarrassing as at work I’m sure people think I’m strange.

I seem to have a new problem, if thoughts about a family member pop into my head I feel I have to blink 4 x then it doesn’t stop there as I then need to blink 4 x for each family member incase something happens to them. Ive googled and googled am I the only one this happens to. Feeling really down about it, because am panicking incase I keep doing it in front of people. How do I stop this. ?

Tulsas Its crazy the need to do these bizarre things. Do you family know about it all? I try my hardest to hide it all. I looked back on my kitchen camera from this morning and can't believe what I saw ? I'm not even realising how long it's taking me to come out of the kitchen. Shocking. Also am using more and more hand sanatizer. Someone shook my hand today. I wanted to run away ? As soon as I walked off the hand Sanitiser was out.

Thank you both for your replies. I've never been to the doctors about that, but have suffered since age 10 with panic attacks which I've visited the docs and hospital many times for. I'm pretty good at talking myself out of them now, well most of the time. Most people laugh about my strange ways but actually to me they are very annoying. It all seems worse if I've been out for a drink to. I find myself straightening everyone else's drinks and phones. I've never read up on it until recently. I'm just thankful that I don't have the problems some people do. Do you Have ocd to? X

I've always done certain things which I thought were just normal for me, but lately things have got worse until someone said you have OCD. Here's my list. I actually feel embarrassed writing them down. Not stopping the microwave on my children's ages or something bad might happen even when I do have to stop it I feel so anxious about the age it has stopped on. Lining shoes up my husband then son then daughter then me. Mine and my husbands either end to protect our children. I won't sing songs that mention dieing incase something happens to me or one of my family. I line all bottles jars etc with labels showing and in height order and get very cross if they are messed up. I try to leave them but I HAVE to do it. I colour match cups at work If any are a different size I replace them and if to many I put the ones that don't fit away. I fold towels only one way and no labels can show. I line everything up on tables e.g. Phones on the edge glasses in line or if a slated table the have to be in the middle. My latest one is money. I can't bare to hold it I can't stop thinking how many hands and pockets it's been in. I'm going through lots of sanitiser and wash my hands every opportunity even after being given receipts. Its starting to drive me insane. But worried my family are now going to think I'm getting weirder. Please be nice it's taken a lot for me to actually admit all of this. X