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ashipinharbor

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  • OCD Status
    Sufferer
  • Type of OCD
    Intrusive Thoughts - Contamination - Hoarding - Just Right - Mental Contamination

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    Female
  • Location
    America

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  1. Hi, everyone! Hope you are all well. I've had the odd off day, here and there, but I'm doing better than I was. Anywho, I was watching videos about OCD, and I saw this therapist who had her clients do the compulsions, whenever they felt the need, but in a "Oh, I'll just do it, no big deal, it's just a compulsion" way. I don't see how that would work, and I was wondering if y'all had any thoughts? To be clear, I'm not considering trying it. I'm just curious what y'all think.
  2. Did I act on a thought?

    I used to post here, asking for reassurance, all the time. It never worked. It actually made it so I felt I had to come here with every little thing. Listen to PolarBear, and break the cycle. Your OCD is lying to you, but you can fight back. I, and the others here, have heard stuff like this 100 times. We can help you, but you have to be willing to try.
  3. What Is Recovery

    You're right. Now that you frame it like that, I see where I messed up. I guess it's more for people on their way to recovery, rather than recovery itself. I'll be more careful, from now on, with how I approach things.
  4. I heard someone say that the mark of recovery is how fast you can pull yourself back out, and it is so true. We can have blips, slip-ups, even after therapy. But, the growth is in the time between the thought and the dismissal of it. Like, spending only a few minutes on a compulsion, instead of all day. That's growth. That's a sign of recovery. Maybe it's not perfect, but it's better.
  5. Hey all

    I'm so glad I could inspire! Knowing I'm helping others, makes me feel wonderful, because I remember what it's like, in the thick of it, and it's not pretty. I'm not going to lie, today has been kinda rough, but that's okay. Recovery is a process, not a path, and I'll get there, someday. As will everyone, here Don't give up the fight. Recovery is possible!
  6. Hey all

    I just wanted to update everybody on where I am. And where I am is so, so much better than where I was. Long gone are the days filled with ridiculous compulsions and baseless fears. This year was rough ocd-wise, but I came out on top. Thanks to exposure, knowledge, and faith in myself, I've made great strides. I'm not saying my compulsions are 100% gone, that would be a lie, but compared to what it was like before, it's a lot easier to manage. Instead of horrible anxiety, and desperation, I have hiccups, blips, that are easily recovered from. I may not be where I need to be, but I'm closer than I was yesterday. To all sufferers out there, especially those who may have little, to no, hope. Recovery is possible! I'm the proof! You just have to keep fighting, and someday you could making your own post like this.
  7. Why is my OCD flaring up again?

    Look, I'm just going to be blunt. You have OCD. Asking me for reassurance won't work. I refuse to give it, and it won't help. OCD has you thinking you know lgb feelings/experiences better than an actual lgb person. Doesn't that say something about how tightly this thought has you?
  8. Why is my OCD flaring up again?

    If I told you, would your OCD go away? Unfortunately, no. So, there's no point.
  9. Why is my OCD flaring up again?

    Look, if a bi woman saying you're not gay isn't enough, then it's the ocd, and nothing you do will give you any clarity. You're just ruminating, compulsing. It has to stop.
  10. Why is my OCD flaring up again?

    That's why you've never had a relationship. Not because you're a lesbian. At the risk of reassurance, I'm bi, and I've known I was into women since I was a little girl.
  11. How I'm Doing

    I don't want to come here posting every thought, but in case anybody was concerned, I'm doing better. I'm not recovered, but I'm closer than I was yesterday. Because it gets better. It really does. Even if you're in the thick of it, you can get better. I was there, and I understand. But, if I can do it, so can you.
  12. Thanks guys! And I agree, Mike
  13. Thanks, guys! And i agree! More positivity is never a bad thing
  14. I didn't perform a compulsion. Even better, I didn't give my thoughts meaning or importance, even when they felt like mine. I just chalked it all up to ocd, and refused to worry over the thoughts.
  15. How I'm Doing

    I need help. I need to get into therapy, or something. It's not the intrusive thoughts, really. It's everything else. I feel... tainted, unclean. Like I've bathed in filth that'll never wash off. I worry I'll turn into Howard Hughes. I really do. I just wish I had someone to talk to. I'm going to talk to that specialist. If I don't, if I ignore it. It'll just get worse. I regret trying to talk to my folks about my imtrusive thoughts. They won't believe me if I go to them with... whatever this is. See, I don't even know. I don't know what's wrong. Just that something is. Maybe, they'll see it getting worse, and they'll be convinced. I just need someone to believe me. Someone who can help. I'm trapped in my head, and I hate it.
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