Thanks. I know what I do is stupid and it makes no sense. Everyone else shakes hands, or has a shower in 15 mins. Why do I have to have one for 3 hours. But I still have to give in. I've tried to expose myself many times. For example, I always have a shower after going to the toilet, but last year I tried not to for two months, but I still reverted back to my old ways. I just sometimes wish I had someone to talk to about my feelings and to get it all out instead of having it all buried deep inside me for all these years. I don't care if they give tips. I just want someone to hug and tell me they care. I hope you can get through this mess aswell. It's tough.