Hi I have had the same intrusive thoughts for about 4 years on and off. I posted sometime ago under a different user name. I lost my log in details but needed to talk to someone so I created a new account. A student had a crush on me about 4 years ago and I was flattered and terrified. I made sure that nothing happened but once early on I the attention made me feel pretty and desirable. I am ashamed of my thoughts and whenever I see anything on sexual assault I start to panic. I have been reading the book overcoming intrusive thoughts and in one chapter it describes "the distinction is to understand that pedophiles are looking for stimulation and arousal". I feel disgusting talking about this and I made sure that nothing would happen. But I am scared what if I had gone down that path 4 years ago. Is this OCD?