Hi all
Im posting here for the first time but i have been reading the posts and advices here, which i find very useful, thank you all.
My main ocd themes are religious, harm and magical thinking.I cant go to therapists for many reasons, I am doing ERP by myself and i have stopped doing many physical compulsions and im not good at stopping mental ones completely.
Now a new obsession has stuck in my head, and i want to know how to get rid of it. I cant recognise the compulsion of this obsession clearly(perhaps mental one)
Ok, my new obsession is...the image of this famous religious person, something triggered it 2 days ago and my mind said this image will stuck in my head for the rest of my life....i freaked out, i dont want to have this image in my head all the time, it gave me anxiety at first, but now mostly distress, i tried not to ruminate or analyse but i ended up doing it
Now, whenever i remember this image obsession, i automatically feel like the image is stuck in the upper right side inside my head (weird i know), i try not to give attention to it, but it still doesnt fade away i mental check if the obsession has gone or not, obviously its not. I dont know how to stop mental checking, please somebody help me!
And also im obsessing a lot about 'am i stopping mental ritual perfectly?' i focus a lot on how im doing erp, specially for mental compulsions, feels like this has become another obsession/ compulsion, i dont know....
Can anybody please tell me why is this thought not fading? how to make it stop? and also please advice me how to face this.
Thank you so much for reading, i appreciate your replies a lot