Jump to content

Crying right now


Recommended Posts

I feel so alone, I can't help think the thoughts in my head are true although I'll never know, start work again at 4am tomorrow I don't have any friends in life to talk too

Link to comment
Guest Zzowie

your not alone,ive often felt that way,you've lot's of people here who can relate to what you say and will help you get through it. In the short term maybe try to think of other things,try to focus on something else you enjoy,even coronation st of the paper,or make up, eventually you can learn to let go as I'm doing now.. Is there any support groups in your area?

Link to comment
Guest legend

I feel so alone, I can't help think the thoughts in my head are true although I'll never know, start work again at 4am tomorrow I don't have any friends in life to talk too

where are ya family and friends gone to gem XX

Link to comment

you do have friends, you can always talk to us on here, we are all your friends, the reason you don,t know if the thoughts in your head are true is because you have ocd and ocd loves doubt. when you,re not feeling as anxious and worked up what do you beleive then? Its your ocd making you feel this way its been doing exactly the same to me again today, trying to make me doubt something that i have no way of being 100per cent sure of. Please try and refocus and regain a sense of calm, things wont seem half as bad, i,m on here most days to talk to or for advice so you do have at least one friend to talk to, we are all in the same boat .take care kindest regards paul

Link to comment

I don't know , my mum and dad don't understand, my boyfriend lives in London. I don't have any friends.

They are just thoughts. But thoughts that could be true therefore I should feel guilty aboutth as if they happened I don't deserve to live.

I will use a distraction for now, I'll put my iPod on, but I always wake up during the night.....and they come back

Link to comment
Guest legend

I don't know , my mum and dad don't understand, my boyfriend lives in London. I don't have any friends.

They are just thoughts. But thoughts that could be true therefore I should feel guilty aboutth as if they happened I don't deserve to live.

I will use a distraction for now, I'll put my iPod on, but I always wake up during the night.....and they come back

In what way do mum and dad not understand ? do you think that if you printed off stuff from the site and gave it to them it might help

all thoughts could be true, but thats yourself falling into the loops of fear.doubt etc ..... its a game the ocd wants to play grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Link to comment
Guest Lyn77

Hey I understand what you are going through. I read this post and registered to the site to respond. I also live in Renfrewshire area. Have you been to see your gp? I first developed OCD about 3 years ago. I still suffer although it is muh more manageable following help from groups, psychologist and time. Please feel free to chat to me.

X

Link to comment

Lynn here is my background http://www.ocdforums.org/index.php?showtopic=47942&pid=403115&st=0entry403115

Feel free to pm me of reply

I showed my parents the pure o slide show but I don't have anyone here who does get it. Getting up for work again it's so hard when I feel down. Sometimes I have this horrible feeling thinking what If this never goes away and I'm always going to feel like this? Obviously that's negative thinking but sometimes it's hard to make myself read my books and start learning more

Link to comment
Guest Lyn77

Just read your story. Lots of it sounds like mine. I totally know what you are going through! it can be so horrible sometimes but i have been reading alot on a website called pick the brain lately and it is giving me lots of positive thoughts and ideas of how to turn things around. I particularly liked the article day 62 - how to stop taking life so seriously. It kinda put things into perspective for me but there are tonns of interesting articles to read on there. I hope you are feeling better today xx

Link to comment

Ill have a look at it - thanks

I have my phychologist appointment today so I guess Ill see how that goes.

Its hard because in alot of books they say how ocd sufferers will never do the thought there thinking, but I did, therefore Im not sure how to treat it or move on from it?

Link to comment
Guest mondot

We're here for you Gemzi.

I think you're just stuck in a negative cycle and have been for awhile. Don't lose hope. What are you doing for yourself these days to lower your anxiety? Or doing to distract yourself or keep busy?

xx

Mondot

Link to comment

I was talking with my phychologist and I got really angry the other day.

Ive never had unprotected sex, Ive always been careful, only slept with 4 people in my life, always careful.

Only ever not used condoms with my boyfriend of 5 years now, but on the pill.

When I was younger in school I know girls who were silly and got pregnant and went for abortions and stuff, I know of bout 4 different girls.

I was always so sensible. And Im a good person. If i really did see a positive pregnancy test I would have been responsible and went to my doctors, but obviously the next day or something mabye I took another, or mabye Im making this memory up.

I got so angry. Its not fair. I try to be good to everyone. My phychologist was saying how Im a good person and I started crying, never cried infront of him, obviously he has hit a nerve so he asked me to write a compassionite letter to myself, so Ill do that.

I forgive others so easily but I NEVER forgive myself, and its not fair. First time ive felt like this whole ocd isnt fair. I DONT deserve it, and thats very hard for me and I blame myself for everything.

Link to comment
Guest Lyn77

Hey I hope you are feeling better. You should not blame yourself it's not your fault. It is actually because you are such a good person that these thoughts bother you. I was reading on the royal college psychiatry that people with OCD have high moral standards. I remember last year being at the stage where I was angry and annoyed and had hate for my OCD. But really it is only your brain trying to look out for you..I remember reading that when you have a thought u don't like a little red flag goes up and your drawn back to that thought over and over...you have thousands of thoughts every day and most float in and out but we grab on to the ones which scare us and cause us physical sensations and anxiety..our mind just wants to help us to deal with the thought...the problem is that it is hard to let go...you have to say to yourself it is ok..kind of thank yourself for identifying the thought and let it go.

I hope you are well.

X

Link to comment
Guest legend

Feeling good today, then feeling guilty for feeling good as I shouldn't be forgiving for what I've done

doubting yourself x

Link to comment

Not so good today, working full shifts for the first time since January

Today 1400-2200

Tomorrow 1100-1900

Wednesday 0500-1300

Then next week I'm working 1400-2200 onto a 0600-1400 the next day.

The place isn't good for me I don't know when I'm coming or going

Link to comment

Create an account or sign in to comment

You need to be a member in order to leave a comment

Create an account

Sign up for a new account in our community. It's easy!

Register a new account

Sign in

Already have an account? Sign in here.

Sign In Now
×
×
  • Create New...