Confidence

[Unsurechap]

Morning all,

After the new year i have returned to work which is going ok but quiet. Part of my job is business development and i need to get out and meet people and try and secure new business. Problem is with my OCD and my main theme (being gay), i've found my confidence is totally shot and i'm really ashamed of my exploits in the past year ('came out') - how can i get over this and get my confidence back? 

I'm really embarrassed by everything and wish i could just erase the last year of my life completly.

I guess i'm a little 'if only they knew' about socialising and working - i'm usually a confident person but i feel as if my self esteem and confidence is shot completely.... 

[PolarBear]

Yeah but how many people that you meet are thinking to themselves, if this guy only knew...

Most people have problems. Relationship problems, marital problems, money problems. You're no different. You push past it, lift your chin up and be the person you want to be.

[Unsurechap]

thanks PB, i appreciate your comment. i agree with you, i forget everyone else has stuff going on. its a bit like that with social media, assuming everyone's lives are perfect from the stuff they post........

[PolarBear]

Heh, yeah. People are pretty good at covering up their own problems.

[AttemptingToHeal]

I like this. I started trusting some close friends and opened up to them recently about my depression, and to one about my severe OCD. They are now even closer friends and there was nothing to fear in revealing that.