Cycling obsessions

[paco5959]

My OCD always amazes me in that- I felt 100% obsessed and in the throes of an obsession/guilty/ruminating yesterday. Like it was the biggest deal and so important to focus my every emotion into. And today, it's cycled through and changed to one of my top three obsessions, just  like yesterday's chaotic obsession  never existed. And every time, I act/feel like it's never happened before. One would think that recognizing that these obsessions switch so intensely and quickly, would make me realize this is OCD. It surprises me every time. I know this will take so much practice.  I will continue to fight what feels like a never ending battle. 

I'm having some past event guilt and intense false memories as I fight against ruminating. Ive read articles that compare false memory to wax fruit or counterfeit bills. They look exactly the same, but the aren't real.