Guest ashipinharbor Posted February 24, 2017 Share Posted February 24, 2017 (edited) Just need to vent, really. So, I've had some strange happenings, and I'm just frustrated at my OCD Today, I was flooding/vomiting (a compulsion, I know) and I had an intrusive feeling like I wanted to think something, since I was flooding, I did, and I gagged, but then my OCD latched on to it and made me feel like I thought it to enjoy it, eveb though it made me gag (like, that was the point) and I think it perfectly illustrates OCD's fallacy. Making no sense, but scary enough that we consider it. I also have this thing, where if I'm being triggered, I go into what I call an OCD panic, and start frantically making sure I don't think something bad. OCD takes this, and makes sure I do. And makes it feel deliberate. And, either simultaneously, or a second after, my brain will be, like, "No!" and try and force the thought away. I was also watching a vid, and it had these girls, and you could see their rears. And I would keep my eyes away, but then my OCD would make me think I wanted to look there, and I think I did so, to spite my OCD, but my OCD tells me I did so to make the urge go away (it also told me I wanted to look there, as the urge disappeared when I did) but afterwards, my brain would be like "don't look down there!") Also, when I was typing this, I got an intrusive thought that my brain wants to say was on purpose. But, I know it wasn't, because I'm not like that. I don't know. I'm just tired of OCD's lies. Edited February 24, 2017 by ashipinharbor Link to comment
Guest ashipinharbor Posted February 24, 2017 Share Posted February 24, 2017 I'm feeling better, now. Sorry for posting, again. Link to comment
Ashley Posted February 24, 2017 Share Posted February 24, 2017 Hi, Glad you're feeling better. Did you take on board what I said yesterday? Only nothing appears to have changed. Link to comment
Guest ashipinharbor Posted February 24, 2017 Share Posted February 24, 2017 2 minutes ago, Ashley said: Hi, Glad you're feeling better. Did you take on board what I said yesterday? Only nothing appears to have changed. I know, I know! I'm dreadfully sorry! I'm just in a state of panic. I will really, really try and do better, I swear to you! Link to comment
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