My biggest fear: the Future.

[Zazoo]

With my current form of OCD, I'm been making some significant steps (seeing a CBT specialist, avoid compulsions, self ERP etc) but I was wondering how I can confront my biggest fear of living with this possibly for the rest of my life (I'm 39 now).  I know its future thinking but my bad POCD has flipped my life upside down in such a short period of time.  I'm genuinely afraid of the time factor as my anxiety and depression has gotten so intense at times and almost overwhelming (re: self-harm, suicidal actions) and its all day to day, I never know how I'm going to feel.  I've become almost paranoid about the future, possible events, reactions, feelings, relationships and so on.  Please any advice on this would be great.  Thanks in advance.   

[PolarBear]

Look, I started getting better at the age of 49. It's never too late.

I too worried about the future before. I often wondered if this is all there wad to life. 

My advice yo you is work on your OCD. Somehow I think your worries about the future will subside once you get a handle on your OCD. You'll be more positive about the future.

[Elle101]

I'm currently in the middle of a bad, bad spell of anxiety/OCD (possibly a mental breakdown!)

Probably the worst one to date and it's actually forcing me to reflect on life and the future. I'm starting to really appreciate what I have. People have been so supportive. Think about the good things you have. Make a list of things you want to accomplish. Do things you didn't think you were capable of. You will get through this and you'll have good days and bad days. 

Dont worry about something that hasn't even happened yet - be excited about what could happen (I know it's easy to say) but the world is your oyster and you shouldn't allow this to take over. Continue with your CBT (I'm starting on Monday) and try and be positive. I've been in really dark places over the last week and it's hit me in the face like a tonne of bricks but positivity is key.

Someone actually told me this and I thought 'yeah easy for you to say' but it's true. Be positive! (I'll be reading over this post for sure when I'm feeling less positive!) 

Look after yourself - we're delicate things us human beings! 

 

[Zazoo]

I'm trying to get a handle on my OCD and have a good few "days" of not being able to deal with it but this has been the hardest time of my life in the last few years.  I have been trying to stay relatively positive and think of the good things I have (family, friends) or want (like a bulldog puppy).  This has been a mental breakdown for me, its taken me almost three months to the point where I feel I may be recovering from the darkness of this, despite being suicidal last Friday.  I have yet to start my CBT and won't until early May but am hopeful.  Anyone else get really tired and worn down by all this? 

[Elle101]

Yep - I made a breakthrough earlier and then I started worrying about something else. 

My brain is so exhausted. It's like OCD doesn't want you to have a break or restbite. 

We're in control though remember - they are thoughts, they don't even physically exist, why let them win? We're bigger and stronger than they are.