please advice seems like no help in sight having a terrible time please comment

[Louise21]

please help i suffer from ocd and i currently have no help and haven't had any for a long time now. i'm on meds but there not enough i was getting some form of counselling but not cbt or erp i just talked and talked i it was going no where to cut a long story short it ended abruptly and i now don't even have that,

im struggling really badly now for ages on my own and my doc doesn't seem to want to know seem totally uninterested in me and my ocd problem i had a meeting today and it went really badly i was told to leave the office cause i can only assume i was asking questions which  my doc refuses to discuss with me doc frequently refuses even to engage i never know from session to session what attitude to expect i was given a glimmer of hope a few weeks back with what seemed like an offer of erp but no cbt but i went in after a month interval between the last session to give a progress report some good some glitches i was told i told you it wouldnt work no discussion no nothing. i had my parents accompany me to a number of sessions too to advocate on my behalf and they are met with hostility  

gp isn't proactive either i gone a number of times and they only interested in helping if i want to be signed in to the local general psychiatric unit where i've been told by other people isn't suitable for ocd treatment 

ive had afew private inpatient admissions but time limiting due to insurance cover some in a general private hospital and once in a private hospital who are supposed to have an anxiety ward but i ended up on the old folks ward due to mismanagement of beds and i was totally ignored i gave it 3weeks and they didn't even know i existed in the hospital so i had to leave. old folks ward bed pans nappies and my ocd related to poo and pee not a good combination 

dont know what do do any more. i am still trying to find help but most people i contact don't know about treatment for ocd or don't bother to return my phone calls.

what am i supposed to,do when i cant get a doc recommendation and i'm failing by myself???

trying the self help but no,success i need support don't have a clue how to come up with tasks that will help me improve they im struggling with coping mechanisms aswell 

all i want to,do is to get help,and treatment and no one cares i'm just slipping through cracks in health system

please please respond i really need so advice 

it also taking a toll on my family life which is stressing me out even more!

totally and utterly distraught and disheartened  ??????? balling my eyes out ????

i hope i get responses please ???

thank you 

[PolarBear]

Louise, where are you located?

[PhilM]

She is in Ireland.

Louise is there another GP in the practice you can see? Perhaps someone more sympathetic to your distress? I don't know the situation in Ireland but I would assume you have community mental teams like we do in the UK?

You are obviously in a very distressed condition but it can improve with the right support. Have you heard of this organisation (hope it's ok with the moderators to provide the link): https://www.ocdireland.org/ ? There seems to be a lot of information on the organisation's website - maybe worth having a look?

Best wishes, Phil.

[PhilM]

Also: http://www.hse.ie/eng/health/az/O/Obsessive-compulsive-disorder/

[Lynz]

Louise whereabouts in Ireland are you based? There are some support groups in Dublin who may be able to put you in touch with specialist therapists. Obviously if you can't get to Dublin then that will be tricky.

I'm wondering if @Ashley knows of any organisations or contacts in Ireland that can help?

Would you consider Skype calls with a private therapist? Obviously I don't know what your financial situation is like in terms of being able to afford private treatment but it is something to consider. Ashley may be able to recommend therapists in Ireland, or if not in Ireland who can do Skype calls.

What meds are you taking at the moment?

Hang in there  x

[Louise21]

i'm in the south of ireland it's the community mental health team that i am with and they are the obstacle other gps  in my area  refer to them too and wont refer me to any other team in the county / or different catchment area and they all seem to refer to one psycharist as first port of call privately which i saw and the doc when i suspected i had ocd a few years ago and wouldn't refer me any where for help and also encouraged  my washing rituals told me to stop showering but wash everywhere at the hand basin instead it got outta hand altogether. didn't help either to solve problem wasn't taken seriously at all either kinda ignored like it was a fad and i'd get over it. gps seem reluctant to search for any one else seems like it's a big chore for them 

ocd isn't taken seriously or empatheticly here well from my point of view and my experience anyway all i get is the attitude that i'm stupid and what i'm thinking and rituals are stupid totally judgemental  i know there's a problem and aware rituals aren't normal that's why i'm seeking help to deal cope and improve compulsions 

kinda broke don't have money receiving state disability payment as ocd interferes so much and it takes ages to get ready that i can't hold down a job and i was refused a medical card /gp card even though everyone on disability payment theoretically i think is automatically entitled to one for reasons i don't know working to appeal but everything takes ages to even process don't mind getting an answer here no guarantees so my meds cost in excess of €100 every 4weeks that nearly an entire payment every 4 weeks and all psycharist and psychology sessions are really expensive here 

getting to dublin would be a chore but won't entirely rule it out but i'd have to stay over like in a hotel or b&b or somewhere anyways and that's another expense to be factored in 

meds are prozac, pregablin, and an antipsychotic arizipripozol doc doesn't alter my meds even though they are not workin effectively for me in my opinion never reviewed anymore just rewrites a script for same dosages every time i go back even when i ask them to be looked at 

advice welcome on meds what's worked for others? 

do u know anyone good recommendations for skype sessions for psycharist and psychologist and a ball park on how much they cost?

would also appreciate if @Ashley had any recommendations if known in ireland or anyone for that matter 

thanks