Irregular86 Posted August 29, 2017 Share Posted August 29, 2017 So after a really productive session with my therapist where i did really well in resisting my compulsions for 30hrs ans facing the fear a little and a lovely few days away with my partner and my little boy I'm once again overcome with thoughts. The new one is ridiculous but can't get it out of my head. I took my little one to see paw patrol in Leeds last Wednesday, a guy was sat behind us with his kids and wife. Something scuffed past my back which I know was probably his little boys shoes as when I turned around he was now sitting on his dad's knee instead of in the seat next to him. Anyway my mind has now decided someone has jabbed me with a needle even though it wasn't a sharp pain more of a nudge. There was no pain afterwards, no marks that I notice now but it has been almost a week. When will this ever end?? One step forward and two back all the time. Wish I could just turn my thoughts off entirely! Link to comment
PolarBear Posted August 29, 2017 Share Posted August 29, 2017 You have to identify the compulsions you are doing and work to stop them. Probably your biggest is ruminating but could also include Googling and reassurance seeking. Those compulsions are what are keeping the thoughts alive. Link to comment
Irregular86 Posted August 29, 2017 Author Share Posted August 29, 2017 Googling is a major compulsion of mine. This is the one I managed to resist and it felt so good knowing I'd not done it that long. I was really proud of myself but it's as if it always finds something else to throw at me. I know the latest worry is stupid cos of course I'd know if it had happened but the what ifs are in full swing at the minute. Link to comment
PolarBear Posted August 29, 2017 Share Posted August 29, 2017 How much time are you spending ruminating over it? Be honest. Link to comment
Irregular86 Posted August 29, 2017 Author Share Posted August 29, 2017 Since it popped into my head a few hours ago it's there pretty much constantly. I have gotten my son ready for bed, washed up and sorted around the house all on auto pilot as this is in the forefront of my mind. Can you give me any tips on how to stop ruminating? Link to comment
PolarBear Posted August 29, 2017 Share Posted August 29, 2017 Im on my phone and cant post the link but i did a YouTube video called How to stop ruminating. Its a very straightforward guide. Link to comment
Irregular86 Posted August 29, 2017 Author Share Posted August 29, 2017 I'm going to check it out now. Thank you for your help. I don't really have anyone who I can talk to, my family don't really understand the condition at all just keep telling me to stop thinking about things and calm down. Easier said than done! Link to comment
Irregular86 Posted August 29, 2017 Author Share Posted August 29, 2017 That was very informative thank you. Just need to put it into practice now. Link to comment
Irregular86 Posted August 30, 2017 Author Share Posted August 30, 2017 So I slept well but woke feeling anxious. Need to stop thinking about it. Link to comment
Irregular86 Posted August 30, 2017 Author Share Posted August 30, 2017 As the day has gone on the anxiety has relented a little. What goes up and all that............ Link to comment
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