If only I could have my life again

[OceanDweller]

So are you going to pay your GP a visit and be honest about how you’re feeling bruces?

[bruces]

to be honest ive visited doctors and taken meds since I was 17 im now 42 and im questioning the fundamentals of life and my remaining time left on this mortal coil,im approaching the time when you have to say goodbye to some of your loved ones and that's something I dread,i always felt hope that I could find my reason for being(I cant spell the French version) lol

 

[Bodger]

Have you had CBT?

[bruces]

not recently no

 

[Bodger]

It might be worth you requesting a new round?

[bruces]

I'm not sure theres an awful lot of issues and I am 42 now 

[Wonderer]

2 hours ago, bruces said:

I'm not sure theres an awful lot of issues and I am 42 now 

What if CBT could eliviate SOME of those issues? Wouldn’t that be nice, to have less issues? Nobody walks around in this life with no issues, everybody has something going on for them. It sounds like u can’t be bothered to make the effort to help yourself, but nobody else can do it for u. 

[Tanana]

Hey. I'm nearly 50 and have had OCD and anxiety for as long as I can remember (when I was 6). It's never too late. The sooner you tackle it the more of life you can enjoy in the future.

[BelAnna]

You are still alive so you have a life .

 You can still live it, you might need more help to live it to the full but it can happen! If you are in good physical health then it's quite possible that you have 40-50 years to live and they can be wonderful years!

[bruces]

It's weird in a morning when you wake up and your ok for a few seconds then everything just hits you at once and you kind of get that feeling of dread and fear wash over you,then it's there for the full day 

[OceanDweller]

17 minutes ago, bruces said:

It's weird in a morning when you wake up and your ok for a few seconds then everything just hits you at once and you kind of get that feeling of dread and fear wash over you,then it's there for the full day 

Your thoughts dictate your emotions bruces. You’re waking up, examining your life and catastrophising. Some of the undesirable aspects of your lot you may be able to change. Some you may not. But with therapy you can learn to modify your ATTITUDE towards life, and in doing so feel more optimistic. That, in turn, will encourage you take action on those elements that can be changed. Cognitive Behavioural Therapy works on thoughts, feelings and behaviours, and is exactly what you need. Currently all you seem to do is post on forums about how unhappy you are with your life. That’s called moaning. It can also be described as self-pitying. And it won’t help you one bit.

Edited December 7, 2017 by OceanDweller

[bruces]

No I suppose it's a habit I've got into over the years and an unhealthy one at that,I suppose the most frustrating thing is that I put myself here,isn't hindsight a winflderful thing 

[OceanDweller]

Just now, bruces said:

No I suppose it's a habit I've got into over the years and an unhealthy one at that,I suppose the most frustrating thing is that I put myself here,isn't hindsight a winflderful thing 

So what are you going to do about it?

[bruces]

im not really sure I wish I could go back but that's not an option

[OceanDweller]

So your options are...

1) Do nothing (except whine) thus CHOOSING an unhappy future

Or...

2) Approach your GP to request therapeutic/pharmaceutical support

What are you going to do?

[bruces]

I'm going to go to the doctors,can anybody relate to feeling mentally lost? 

[Wonderer]

47 minutes ago, bruces said:

I'm going to go to the doctors,can anybody relate to feeling mentally lost? 

I reckon everyone with ocd can relate to this feeling at some point. Thing is, we need to decide not to settle for it! Hope all goes well at the doctors, remember once ur at the bottom the only way is up x

[OceanDweller]

41 minutes ago, Wonderer said:

 

I'm going to go to the doctors

 

Let us know how you get on please bruces.

[Bodger]

2 hours ago, bruces said:

I'm going to go to the doctors,can anybody relate to feeling mentally lost? 

Yes I used too, but I sought help, put in loads of hard work, and am now in a happier place!

[Caramoole]

5 hours ago, bruces said:

No I suppose it's a habit I've got into over the years and an unhealthy one at that,I suppose the most frustrating thing is that I put myself here,isn't hindsight a winflderful thing 

Worth thinking about that Bruce's.  "I put myself here", "It's a habit I've got into"

Your thoughts and thought process have created and maintained this situation........it also stands to reason that your thoughts and thought process are capable of being changed to beneficial ones, you have the power, you are what you think!

[bruces]

I know and I'm not hard done to by any means but I'm just absolutely terrified of life 

[Caramoole]

30 minutes ago, bruces said:

I know and I'm not hard done to by any means but I'm just absolutely terrified of life 

 It's not surprising, because that is what you tell yourself in every waking moment.  There's an old saying that says "Change the record!", and without being facetious, that's exactly what you need to do

[bruces]

I know sorry im just so scared

 

[OceanDweller]

On 06/12/2017 at 07:49, bruces said:

It's an odd one I think about my mortality a lot and although life has become nothingness,i.e. Nothing to enjoy or look forward to I still find myself wanting to live even though it consists of nothing,I suppose it's the age old human survival instinct. 

I’m not going to play amateur psychiatrist bruces, but I have felt this way before (and may well do again). My GP diagnosed me, medicated me, and referred me for CBT. If my symptoms were to return, I wouldn’t hesitate in pursuing that same course of treatment.

Edited December 7, 2017 by OceanDweller

[Bodger]

What are the problems that you are scared of, that are stopping you getting help Bruces??