Cant shake it off, sorry for post

[battlethrough]

Ive not googled or confessed or tried to get reassurance but i am stuck

Im going over old ground but i cannot shake off the occasional fantasise ive had about my sister in law. 

Not googling is tough, its like an addiction. 

Not confessing makes me want to break down and cry

I cant see any light

Images of the past fantasies intrude my mind constantly, i dont know how many times i have but my brain tries to re count,. 

Is there anyway out of this hell

[NoahsArk]

Hello Battlethrough. Maybe a combination of mindfulness (i.e. telling yourself these are not legitimate thoughts, just OCD false alarms, followed by refocusing on something else that you enjoy, like a hobby, for as long as you can), and just letting go of the past and trying to go easier on yourself. I recently did a youtube search for "letting go" and found this very helpful. He's in a monk's robe and all, haha, but speaks very well.

 

[PolarBear]

You've cut out some compulsions but I bet you ruminate like crazy. You have to work on slowing down and stopping that one.

Edited March 1, 2018 by PolarBear

[battlethrough]

Thnx na, im not sure what you mean by legitimate thoughts as the fantasies were not intrusive. 

Pb, im still waiting for therapy, i really hope they can help with ruminating as its something so full in my brain i cannot stop