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[Guest ciaramarie]

Today I have cbt and I've been doing the work I feel a little better but still quite anxious, I ask my boyfriend to give me a couple of days.

I was in tears but I don't think that means anything. People feel sad about break ups all the time even if they know its not what they want

But my mums friend spoke to me and said I cant make those decisions now as I'm not in the right frame of mind. I've been ruminating about this subject for ages about 2 and a half months. And I just feel weird I want those feelings back for him but feel like I will never trust them fully cause all the stuff in my head which is evidence that I'm. Gay x has anyone ever got to the point where they feel like they will never know until they try which scares me

[Aileen82]

Hi Ciara, good on you for putting in the work. It'll take a long time to lose the anxiety part but please keep going it definitely does work. Of course you are going to be upset, you are going through such a difficult time. Try your best to keep doing the homework and try not to look for reassurance or compulsions like checking to see how you feel etc (I know it's so much easier to give this advice than take it believe me but it really is the only way forward) good luck at cbt and keep me posted on how you are doing xx

[Guest ciaramarie]

Thanks Aileen. How are you doing x

[Aileen82]

I'm good Ciara. I'm having good hours and bad hours and I'm not gonna give up! 2 weeks till baby comes so I'm trying to get in a good mind space for then. Million times better than a month ago thank god. I'm glad to see you are working on your cbt hope you are ok and make some progress too (it's so difficult) xx