bruces Posted May 31, 2015 Share Posted May 31, 2015 I seem to spend an increasing amount of time reliving past events and conversations wishing I could go back in time etc,I spend a lot of time doing this sometimes hours Link to comment
ACE Posted May 31, 2015 Share Posted May 31, 2015 Bruces this is very common with OCD rumination,obsessional thinking etc etc. Link to comment
gingerbreadgirl Posted May 31, 2015 Share Posted May 31, 2015 yes, this is really common, I do this a lot, often it's just ticking over in the background. it's the same as any other kind of rumination, and can only be stopped with a firm decision to think about other things. difficult but not impossible x Link to comment
bruces Posted May 31, 2015 Author Share Posted May 31, 2015 (edited) My latest one is wishing I could go back in time and do things different,it feels like everything seemed better in the past it hurts too much to think of times gone by I especially wish my parents were younger it's like time has flown by without me noticing and I know for certain I won't cope with the loss of parents I know that for sure Edited May 31, 2015 by bruces Link to comment
Guest Kelpie Posted May 31, 2015 Share Posted May 31, 2015 Do these thoughts include long (sometimes hours long) thoughts/imagination about things that are not real? Like all the things you would do if you emigrated? Or adopted a child and how you would raise them... things that I have no way of doing? I can go hours, 'living' this new random live/events. Link to comment
bruces Posted May 31, 2015 Author Share Posted May 31, 2015 Yes Definately I can sit and think for hours of the things I'd do if I won the lottery or something Link to comment
Guest Kelpie Posted May 31, 2015 Share Posted May 31, 2015 I have always been so vivid in my thoughts and wonderings. I get so stuck in thoughts. I walk to most places so I have hours a day just thinking. Even if I try and distract with music. Link to comment
bruces Posted May 31, 2015 Author Share Posted May 31, 2015 I just dream of being normal I wish I was Link to comment
ACE Posted June 1, 2015 Share Posted June 1, 2015 Bruces this is so very common my friend& especially when you're very unwell the severe constant ruminations& obsessional thoughts are very difficult to break.I know the difficulty is that although what were great times are hard to take in when you are very unwell because you go over& over them so much& miss them like ever before & you really want those times again.I know it's very tough to break this cycle, I can certainly relate when I was very unwell day& night I would go over& over everything in my head of past events it would hurt like hell also the conversations,the fun times you name it. I am saying this to just try to hopefully help you in a way, see if you can try to interrupt that type of thinking as tough as it is right now maybe some distractions,anything at all :original: .Try to even say I know this hurts so much I really wish I can have these times again but they're all very possible in future as hard as they're understandable to see now :original: . Link to comment
bruces Posted June 1, 2015 Author Share Posted June 1, 2015 Yes I know what you mean I think if only I could go back a few years then everything would be ok Link to comment
ACE Posted June 2, 2015 Share Posted June 2, 2015 I know it is tough bruces especially when you aren't well & miss those old times, trey to remember you can get those times back as hard as it is to see right now :original: . Link to comment
bruces Posted June 2, 2015 Author Share Posted June 2, 2015 I feel that if I can't lead a full and normal life like what other people can then id prefer not to bother Link to comment
ACE Posted June 2, 2015 Share Posted June 2, 2015 Bruces you can & will get the life you so want & deserve I know it's hard to see now but with a lot of hard work you will get there,remember the only way is up now :original: . Link to comment
bruces Posted June 2, 2015 Author Share Posted June 2, 2015 My mind is so muddled I don't know what to do Link to comment
ACE Posted June 3, 2015 Share Posted June 3, 2015 Bruces I know& understand how tough it really is for you right now I really do,but I think you need to try& get to see either your GP immediately& request to see a new specialist that you haven't seen before& if that doesn't work seek from another GP.Also really try to explore the possibility of going into hospital because the way you're you really need urgent attention I really do think so :original: . Link to comment
ACE Posted June 4, 2015 Share Posted June 4, 2015 I feel so incredibly bad Why bruces? :original: Link to comment
bruces Posted June 4, 2015 Author Share Posted June 4, 2015 I hate my life and I hate myself,don't think I can take anymore meds or therapy Link to comment
ACE Posted June 4, 2015 Share Posted June 4, 2015 Bruces that is really what it is going to take,I know& understand how exhausting it all is but you put in the hard work trust me/us you will reap all the benefits in the end :original: . Link to comment
bruces Posted June 4, 2015 Author Share Posted June 4, 2015 How can I live a life of guilt and regret plus all my problems Link to comment
bruces Posted June 4, 2015 Author Share Posted June 4, 2015 I keep trying to remember back and remember what years things happened is that normal Link to comment
ACE Posted June 5, 2015 Share Posted June 5, 2015 Yeah i understand how that is bruces i get that a lot as well & I know it hurts, but with me personally speaking although I miss the old times i can go back & see how my life was soaffected with all my conditions.I know how difficult it really is missing the old memories& especially when obsessional thinking,ruminating has such a strong hold.I think also you can no doubt get the happy times back again& maybe even better because you feeling in a much better headspace when you get better you will see that for yourself :original: . Link to comment
bruces Posted June 5, 2015 Author Share Posted June 5, 2015 Some people lead such happy lives don't they,and it's just the luck of the draw Link to comment
ACE Posted June 5, 2015 Share Posted June 5, 2015 Bruces yes sadly that is the luck of the draw& we can only do the best we can also I guess :original: . Link to comment
bruces Posted June 5, 2015 Author Share Posted June 5, 2015 I'll never live I'll only ever exist Link to comment
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