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Marko2020

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  1. Sadly I don't have a psychiatrist and I managed to get in contact with 1 counsellor and I have to pay £15 a session and have to wait 20 weeks. They was the only one who replied out of 8. My gp has tried and tried but the primary health team here don't care and just discharge me as they can't help everyone they said.
  2. I contacted them 2 weeks ago and they never replied. I haven't been out at all, just strengthening my legs still as I can barely stand for more than a few minutes.
  3. I don't feel like myself any more, I get more and more thoughts about the world being better without me in it. I hqve no friends and only my mum which should be enough for anyone but I'm struggling to see 1 good thing I have to give in life. Everyone left me eventually, I was bullied to the point that people tried to drown me, the feeling of the water as my head was pushed further down, tried to grasp for air to be pulled back down again. I should of died that day as the longer it went on , my body started to feel different. I had people hit me with sticks, stones that broke my nose and scared my face, beaten so bad I couldn't sleep for days properly. I sit alone now and diabetes is taking my life now. Was given experimental pills semaglutide and scared to take them as reas horror stories and ocd makes me think I'll suffer. I'm lost and alone right now and images come into my head of traumatic events. Dr's can't help me, primary care team discharge me saying they can't help me. People say to talk about your mental health and there is always hope. Unfortunate I know this isn't true and sometimes I wish I wasn't such a chicken and had the balls to end it all like others have. I know no one will reply here and I don't blame you. Why should you help or talk to a stranger/looser .
  4. What's the email address I should send the info too and do I Mark it for yourself? Yes, accessing the treatment is what I'm finding the hardest. @Ashley
  5. I just put a complaint in to the email address on that form. I've done this 2 times before and got nowhere but I'll try again. Ocd bullies me enough by saying "you're worthless", no one cares and everyone they deny me or ditch me with no other plan in place, it re enforces it. I try so hard to fight my ocd thoughts and ignore them but when this happens time and time again, it gets harder to. Not sure if anyone gets what's I mean there. My diabetes is very bad since starting those pills. The Dr asked if I could cut back but the withdrawals are terrible. I went from having a good mental hewlrh team a few years ago to them being moved to a different area and then me left alone.
  6. I hqve gone to my gp 4 different times now and he has put referels in and when I get an appointment the primary care team just say they are underfunded and no we can't help, then discharge me from primary care. It really has hurt me as I had the cbt one yesterday and it left me in tears when they said they can't help me and I'm not ready. I need councling and yet it's not offered in my area. I put in a complaint 2 times when they treated me less than a hunan and yet it got me nowhere. I'm seriously lost and makes me feel like no matter what I say gets anything done No, I don't have anyone, I'm completely isolated and alone which makes things worse.
  7. Hey everyone, So I've been struggling with my mental health since I was a teenager. Just now I'm going through a very rough patch and I've spoken to my doctor and the primary care team. None can help me they say, I was denied cbt as I need trauma councling and yet in my area, they say no councling ssrvices are available. I'm on quitiapene at night that makes me eat everything in sight and my diabetes has been affected, again no one says they can help and say each other is in charge and it goes round and round. I can't function properly and haven't been out the house properly in years now and I feel I can't cope properly any more. All services have shut me down and I feel that speaking out about my mental health was the wrong idea, no one helps you and I feel it's all lies. My ocd now makes me think that it was right and no one cares, you are worthless and not worth anyone's times. I'm honestly lost what to do now, I don't seek reassurance any more like I once did. I have no friends and nobody to tall with. I can barely walk now and the physio says nothing is physically wrong with me from what she sees. I feel there is no hope.
  8. My cholesterol and heart markers have gone up from 3.0 to 7.2. I have stopped eating crisps and chocolate and it's been 4 days now. I'm hoping this alone will help my sugar level to go down. I'm still also not fully mobile yet and my head is all.over the place. Especially since I have my review in a few weeks. It's going to take my body at least 3 months to show any improvement, unless it's too late and my pancreas is just gone. I wish I didn't leave this for a year and a half. My kidney results are still <60 so they are in the normal range according to the results. My average blood sugars are 17, up from 14.
  9. I got my results. My hbc1a has gone up from 95 to 106. Havent had a call yet from them but I will. I'm hoping I get off with just oral meds as I really can't deal with insilin.
  10. Hope you get good news Howard. The nurse came today for my bloods again and anxiety keeps coming in waves just now. I don't want to go on insulin as it would make my ocd so much worse. I would be obsessing over it.
  11. So , called the Dr today and they have lost my blood samples. I need to take them again.
  12. Yeah the physio comes to see me every 2 weeks at home just to check in and see how I am. It's now a full week and dr hasn't called so I take it my bloods must be not bad this time or I would of heard. I definitely need to get my self esteem up a little more. I do feel the muscle getting tighter now after stating these exercises. As they say , it's not a marathon it's just getting started.
  13. Hi all, So I had physio today and we've implemented the stand up/sut down exercise, along with doing stairs once a day. I'm doing really well and I'm hoping after this 2 weeks I can move onto something more. They told me to do this slowly as they don't want me to do too much and go backwards. It's also been a week since I got my diabetic bloods and so far no one has phoned me , which my physio says is very good. Means my bloods aren't too bad . I'm trying not to think about it though.
  14. So it's been 3 days with no results yet, however my friend who got hers done on same day got her results. I'm guessing maybe mine isn't too bad as they normaly phone the next day and did last time my bloods was high
  15. Do you happen to know the website for that at all?
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