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Noonens here? I feel im dying and noone is anywhere, im alone!!! Heeeelp!

Im sorry your having a hard time with this. Guess your obsessed in this though, and it wount go away if you think about it all the time. Its just a though, you havent done anything wrong. Youre being hard on yourself. What can u do to relax? Not ruminate over this thought.. If it comes, try to not ruminate.. Wish i could write a good answar

I will also say, i know its not good being "adicted" to someone else. But i think many with ocd is.. Expecially partners. Of you re in a "plan", working step by step with a todolist everyday, and feel its going the right way.. Making healthplan. trying to do everything tight.. And this person are there as part of your days suddenly is gone. You dont know when he returns, where he is.. Thats actually worse then any withoyt server ocd can imagine. (and please dont judge me to hard being like this)

My life is a nightmare now, and i will be thankful from my heart if someone would write something here. In the last two years my ocd just gotten better an better. But i had my challanges and things happening in my life. And now im in real pain. I cant write all my story , witch would be to long. But heres some backstory: - i live alone, but stayed alot with my boyfriend./friend latly- )(my boyfriend want to call us just friends, but we been tohether for a long time and every day, and its like the same. So abit confusing maybe i call him bfriend here.. Like bestfriend or boyfriend.) - My mum and grandma has canser, and granma been really ill latly.she is close to me. And i cryed and been worried. - -i got a close friend last year, that i known since childhood. He talked alot to me last spring, and was very close friend of fam. I though he was amazing to help with support recover ocd, we spend alot of time together every day and night, but the sad part is that he might use this to achive something else.. He moved in next door, became nabour. I lived there 1, 5 years before that (witch is the longest i lived somewhere in along time, cause ocd makes me move alot before. Contemination ocd) There was wine, more then ever, he start massage (told me it help my psical tention at firs) and I fall in love, and Well suddenly he had a girlfriend. I didnt knew, he lied at start. I tryed talk with him, i started selfharming, and he was not letting go of acting fysical. He was a importent person in my life but i went, he would like to have two i guess, and im not like that.. And maybe he was mostly interessted in mybody) And some of the things happened i been in therapy for. And they try to convince me something really bad happend, and im just messed up. So i had move! I was adviced so. Even if i liked it there and finaly got settled. And its hard to explain shortly. - I feel ocd made me loose so much. Friends, work, stuff.. And yes, i tryed lots of treatments, and i know it can be better. But right now. Is it ok to grief? I cry and feel a big sorrow, but feel i cant tell "cause its my fauled" but i fighted alot and still do.. but i start loosing my pride and selfrespect and i think thats not good? - Im in torture now. I dont like my new place, even if i tryed for some months. my bfrirnd left few days ago witch ..wuthout any anwars and i feel i lost ..Im alone. And scared. And maybe i write about todays situation in new post. But im full of anxiety, my ocd got extreemly worse in the last two days, not much sleep and food, and im like !!!!! Please write, please!!!

(..But i see now it looked suspictious.. I just had litle time, and wrote short and direct.)

Hi. Yes off course contact a doctor. But i guess she ll do that altso. I will not try to play doctor or pretend i am And even if i did, i couldnt give out any prescriptions.:) But cant experiences be great as well? Experiences from those who actually tryed the meds themself. The diffuculties about meds is that they works different on different people. And its impossible anyway to tell others what to do about medication. Or if it will work. But i have ocd, i tryed this type of meds in two years and had my experiences. (And i read aaaalot about quetapine lately because quitting , without pretending im an experts.) So why not share if questions?(PS. I will also say some doctor are good and are not.. And some gives easily out lots of meds testing, And its allowed to be critical also to doctors) Good luck Daisy

I just tryed it together with ssri. I just stoped taking both. By redusing in three months. Please contact if you have questions.

The stuff Im not 100 prosent convinced its ocd, or frihtens me themost is the thougest to work with.. But I guess that Is ocd.. And I lissen to the voice of ocd, cause Its sort of my gut feeling

I wish there was quick fixes Thank you for comment Polar Bear. I think my compulsions are many, and I guess it would be a long list to work with.

I try to face my fears, but I know I also avoid many. Its really so hard! Cause I try to tell myself "This is just ocd" But when I concered/ won over 100- ocd challenges I get tired, and the anxiety higher, and I often loose some of the fights eventuelly. And I get dissepointed over myself.. But some of the challenges are just much more frightning then the 80 prosent of others. And Im scared of high anxiety. And I honestly can say that I HATE showering But I went from showering 20-30 times in one day, to now most nights go to bed without showering at all. And I can go two days without showering. But today Its not going well on this point either My Ocd always find something new. If I solve one thing, I get a new challenge. I had like "checking" contemination, rumninating (and I feel most on the different ocd categories") And I think I have strong delusions also.. Not psycose, but still delusions. I really want to get better. And If was "100" when I was on my worse. I guess Im maybe 40 in ocd now. But these last is still destroying my chance of a good life. But If I try "harder" , can I get well by myself?? If I meet my fears? I do alot right, but I have to do alot wrong too.. Cause I still is living with ocd

Hello! I moved to a new place some few days ago, and even if I dont feel so stressed up by moving my ocd has gotten 20 times worse..! I have bad thoughs and compulsions in every move and every choice i take. And I feel like I have a "hold" in my chest or something, because of anxiety ALL day in many days. There always more.. More challenge.. things i try to not think about. I have gotten an apparment without funitures (bed, sofa, kitchen stuff.....) And Its really really hard for me to get anything, cause my contamination ocd is getting crazy, and my anxiety is really hight all day! Like Im afriad to get it "used", cause i dont know witch contemination whos on, and im even afriad of some new ones, or the car whos going to transferre it.Im afraid to shop in "that shop", I dont let "those person" help me move (contemination) and Im afriad of almost ALL of my old belongings.. cause i feel they conteminated with mental contemination and will destroy the new place.. But Im trying.. Im really happy about finding a new home. I really like it. And Im glad im finished with watching appartments.. Im almost finish with the last one.. whos been THOUGH. Im not sure what Im asking here. Its just; Im aftaid of so much. I just want to lie down and say "PLEASE; HELP ME". Im sleeping on a airmadrass in the new appartment (witch I have to pump up and leek) And Im so afriad to get in new thing(like a bed) in WRONG TIME, or when im conteminated (who can be if one person say a surtain word that day) Its so fragile. I easy feel conteminated and unable to "get to work". And I have gotten many steps, and i really do put myself out there, and do stuff imafraid.. But the thought are now many times worse then a week ago, and its really gettingme low and my body hurt.. Is there anything I can do to get through this? I feel I will explode if anxiety, and its hard to do anything. I taken sobril the last few days( witch im carefull with.) It helped. But Im getting so sleepy and cant drive car then.. Any advice thanks xxxx

Its been a while. I just want to say that I think of sevral of you now and then. Maybe I will write an utdate some day of my life. I still got ocd but im mostly fine Best Wishes to you all, and specially Daisy, Symphs and Polarbear if you read this You are often in my mind Daisy. And i Wish all of you in this forum a good summer, the best you can.. <3 life can get better! X

When you can't have someone in your home, and then your toilet get clogged.. and you break safety glas underneath the fire place.. so i can't use the oven And i tryed to fix the toilet for a long time myself this evening, but gave up.. , and just got really sick of the dirty work, and the dirty water who came on the floor.. and have showered a lot now and cried.. i will try and not think about it now and i dont dare to tell anyone, cause i can't have anyone in here.. and its a mess in the bathroom. And i even got flies in the kitchen, and tried to trow out the trash.. but if still its flies.. cause I'm so slow trowing trash bco ocd and I'm sad and ashamed I will try to not think about it right now and sleep i dont need advice i guess.. i just wanted to get it out.. normal problems for most people can really become alit nightmare with ocd

I wish you had meds that could help you. It has helped me a lot! And I dont know where i had been without it.. I hope you dont get me wrong on my advice, and me telling you like "you do wrong" I know you work really good in many ways, and even if you have lots of challenges in your life, except the ocd also you carry on. And you should be proud of what you achieve. Remember that improvement and the things you do can be harder to notice then the things we struggling with.. Best wishes! x

# I meant the other option is easier in short time, but worse in long the long run.. But Im not meaning to tell you right from wrong here..I can't see what you are doing and not doing! I just have the same things about facing a lot still having lots of ocd. And I think there might be something in the things I heard. And it could explain why some people doesn't get better even they face a lot of challenges.. they simply work a little "wrong".. Does it make sense?