Zoned out

[Guest AJ45]

Today I am completely zoned out. But not in a my head is clear way, more of a zone of my own thoughts. I'm sort of stuck !!! Feeling alone and lost.

I know no one can help - but I feel so alone. People I know think I'm ok, in fact they think I'm " "lucky " with the life I've got.

[Guest OCDAY]

Hey AJ,

I used to get this a lot, once I told people close to me about my OCD this improved for me. (I hid my OCD for 20 years). I think it's becauses they can can see when my OCD spikes.

Does anyone close know about yoir OCD?

[Guest AJ45]

Just can't tell those close to me. Those I live with know, but it's difficult.

But I am becoming fed up of the illusion that my life is perfect !

[Guest OCDAY]

But AJ, What is a perfect life???

I have a saltwater marine fish tank (like finding nemo). I have just glued corals to a rock and even though I was sooooo carefull. I have coral glue on my hands. Washed them once but the glue is still there and as exposure therapy I have to ride the the anxiety out and not wash again. The glue isn't toxic but I am currently riding out comtamination issues! Lifes not perfect for people without OCD, we just have to fight harder.

Have u got anyone u cant openly talk too about this, I find it helps!!!