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Guest HeadAboveWater

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I want to but I keep having thoughts that the only reason I want to is because of the underlying intrusive POCD thoughts. I am worried if I have sex with him it will make me think it is because of these other thoughts giving me groinal responses. I don't want to live like that. I don't want any part of it to be caused by these thoughts... because then it makes me think I must be attracted to these thoughts or want to do those things with kids...

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Guest HeadAboveWater

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Nevermind, I definitely can't have sex now. I just got triggered by someone else's post and had a sexual thought about a kid and it SERIOUSLY felt like I enjoyed it. I had a panic attack and went outside to get some air but now I feel like I am a pedo again!

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Guest Azamour

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Can you not say to yourself that you find peados disgusting and you would never do anything like that and in fact it disgusts you. I know it's hard but this is what you think and what you are.

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Guest HeadAboveWater

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Can you not say to yourself that you find peados disgusting and you would never do anything like that and in fact it disgusts you. I know it's hard but this is what you think and what you are.

What do you mean what I am?

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Guest HeadAboveWater

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Can you not say to yourself that you find peados disgusting and you would never do anything like that and in fact it disgusts you. I know it's hard but this is what you think and what you are.

It does disgust me and causes me anxiety but I have images of sexual things in my head that it feels like I find attractive. I can't tell if it is just because of the idea of sex or because of the kid. It is so hard. I am struggling so much with this. I just had a panic attack because of a thought that I felt I found attractive. How can OCD trick you into thinking you like these things?

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Guest HeadAboveWater

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I can't tell anymore what my mind is thinking. It makes so many connections to these thoughts and to kids and now I'm not sure what I am or what I like. I feel sick.

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Symps07

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Is it the anxiety that makes these thoughts and fears feel like I like them and that they are real?

It is you OCD fear that makes you feel like this, & no, they are not real. Treat them as the illusions they are.

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Guest HeadAboveWater

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It is you OCD fear that makes you feel like this, & no, they are not real. Treat them as the illusions they are.

Did you ever get images of kids or sexual scenarios in your head that you felt SERIOUSLY like you were attracted to but at the same time disturbed?

Yes it is, and you are starting to ruminate again, you are going step backwards! face your fears, let the anxiety be there, and just do what you got to do..

I just have the fear that when these things feel so real that I will lose control and do something bad.

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Guest Ichigo

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Did you ever get images of kids or sexual scenarios in your head that you felt SERIOUSLY like you were attracted to but at the same time disturbed?

I just have the fear that when these things feel so real that I will lose control and do something bad.

That losing control, everyone experience that with OCD, it doesn't matter how you feel or not, it's all OCD in the end no matter how hard it is.. the problem is you don't believe you have OCD because OCD keeps manipulating your mind and feeding you with more doubt, and you feed OCD to be stronger and bully you even more.. it's not gonna end if you don't start ignore it.

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Guest HeadAboveWater

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That losing control, everyone experience that with OCD, it doesn't matter how you feel or not, it's all OCD in the end no matter how hard it is.. the problem is you don't believe you have OCD because OCD keeps manipulating your mind and feeding you with more doubt, and you feed OCD to be stronger and bully you even more.. it's not gonna end if you don't start ignore it.

How can I ignore these things? My anxiety is through the roof... I just had a panic attack. I feel like more and more that I want to do these things and that I would like them. I just don't know how to ignore that!

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Caramoole

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Have you ever read any other posts on the forum, particularly ones where other people have the same type of thoughts and sensations?

Would you like to pop across and tell them that they are dangerous paedophiles, that they will definitely lose control and need locking up? Should we as a Charity be reporting these things to the Police? Should I be locked up for aiding and abetting?

Or do you think that these people may be having these thoughts because they suffer from OCD?

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Guest HeadAboveWater

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Have you ever read any other posts on the forum, particularly ones where other people have the same type of thoughts and sensations?

Would you like to pop across and tell them that they are dangerous paedophiles, that they will definitely lose control and need locking up? Should we as a Charity be reporting these things to the Police? Should I be locked up for aiding and abetting?

Or do you think that these people may be having these thoughts because they suffer from OCD?

I have read other posts and I can see OCD causing these thoughts.... however, I also constantly feel like maybe my thoughts and feelings are different. I worry that maybe I don't have OCD but they do. Like, the fact that it feels like I am attracted to these thoughts or sexual scenarios makes me think it is real. Plus, the groinal responses. I just still don't know how those feel so real like I am agreeing with the thoughts and then feeling like I would do that. Do you think from reading this and really understanding what I mean of how real it feels that I am a pedo...that this is still OCD?

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Guest HeadAboveWater

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I keep having thoughts that I will never go back to thinking regular sex with my husband is good because now I find these violent, sex thoughts attractive. And therefore, it makes me think I am going to do it. It is so disturbing. Yet, it feels true. I want to kill myself. These groinal responses only make me feel like it is even more true.

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Guest HeadAboveWater

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Someone please help me! I am so desperate... I feel like I am a totally different person and that I like totally different things than I used to. I feel like it is true and I am scared!

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PolarBear

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You are seeking reassurance and hopefully no one gives it to you.

You have a choice. You can stay stuck where you are or you can start taking on the advice you've been given, treat this as OCD and start the journey toward getting better. Your choice.

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Guest HeadAboveWater

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You are seeking reassurance and hopefully no one gives it to you.

You have a choice. You can stay stuck where you are or you can start taking on the advice you've been given, treat this as OCD and start the journey toward getting better. Your choice.

Polar, I am not seeking reassurance. I am scared out of my mind that I am attracted to these violent, sexual thoughts and that now I want to act them out. SERIOUSLY, how is that OCD? Did you feel like that? Did anyone feel like that? Everyone else seems to know they don't like the thoughts... I DON'T KNOW! It feels like I do.

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