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Hi, I'm Violet. I've been recovering from OCD for a while, and I joined up today because I wanted to remind myself that I'm not just crazy. I've just started my second year of university, and I'm in a 9 bedroom house, and the hardest part of that is having to share a kitchen with so many people. This morning I was making breakfast and I was getting really frustrated with the never-ending cycle of rinsing things under the tap and drying them with paper towel (I can get through a roll of paper towel in a few days when I'm at uni), and I thought about what the others must think when they see me doing all my odd behaviour in the kitchen, and when I got back up to my room I started crying because I felt like I was lost in my own little crazy world that no one around me understands. It's so annoying how you can have made tonnes of progress, but to someone who didn't know you before you're just a weird person who takes three minutes to wash a mug. I started feeling suicidal for the first time in ages, when usually I'm really positive and enthusiastic about life. There's one person living here who has experience with mental illness, so she understands the struggle and we can support each other, but she's been away for the last few days and, as far as I know, there's no one else who could really get it. I think I'm just feeling like this today because I've spent this week with just them, a lot of whom I hardly know, and a load of new people. I think maybe when term starts properly and I'm spending time with friends from my course who are familiar with my anxiety, I won't feel so alone in this. Even coming onto the OCD-UK website has helped a bit.

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Hi Violet , no your not alone. You mention you have made progress, so we'll done you. it's natural when you are around others to feel contious of what you do. It's probable that others don't really notice, I am sure in shared accom others will have there own " ways " of doing things , it's just they won't suffer the anxiety or care what others think.

Take care and stay positive .

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There's three things you need to know: You're not alone, you're not crazy and help is available.

There are tens of millions of OCD sufferers all over the world. There are a lot of us. We all have our own, unique challenges, but we share common symptoms and a common bond. You have come to a place that is operated by, supported by and visited by OCD sufferers. We understand the frustration and anxiety. We've been there. Some of us still struggle with our symptoms. Others have made good progress toward recovery.

Have a read around the main forum to find out what's going on and do not hesitate to jump in and voice your opinion or your concerns.

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