Jack123

Sorry for the late post, I've had a hectic year, me and my partner bought our first house last May! Things are certainly looking up, we now have to dogs of our own, my fear of the dark continues, but I've started playing Badminton on a thursday night, which means I have to drive for about 20 minutes and return in the dark, I took on board what was said, and I thank you greatly for giving me the advise of facing my fear head on, Since having the house, my rituals have calmed down a little bit, but I do find myself checking the doors and windows at night, 4 times a window and door, I then go to bed satisfied that the doors are locked, I do still have an issue with the number 4, sometimes I can check the door 16 times if 4 wasnt sufficient, 16 being 4 times more, Speaking to people on here is very comforting knowing that people are going through what I am, Thanks again, Jack

I second what heartplace says... I've learnt from the amazing people on here, that you have to find the thing that helps you, and suits your needs, when you find it, hold on to it, and don't give up, Jack,

Thank you for the replies, I've only had an initial assessment and diagnosis so far, I'm not sure what erp is? I can't think what the word was, I shall ask when I have my first session, Jack,

Mine fluctuates hugely if I'm going to do something I enjoy, or something different, such as; I went to Devon the week before last, it took me like half an hour to leave the house, because I was so excited I kept do rituals over and over again to make up for the days I wasn't going to be at home?

So the last thing I said was I was going to see my GP, since then, I got referred to Insight Healthcare, where I was diagnosed with ocd, the therapist also said another word, I think it began with a 'T' but I can't remember the name, so basically I am now on the waiting list for cbt, just thought I would keep my progress updated, I feel so much better just from talking to somebody face to face about it, Jack,

Thank you for all the comments and suggestions, I take my dogs out every night, but literally out of my front gate, and no more than 10 meters away from my gate, if I see a person, I come back in, if I see a car, I come back in before I used to take them around the block about half 9 at night, now I take them out at exactly 9 O'clock for 10 minutes Jack,

I don't know, I get scared, which starts the compulsions, I hate it, I just feel safe in bed?

So recently, I've been checking what time the sun is going to set, I get anxious about it being dark, and I cannot physically go out when it's dark, I get really emotional and curl up in a ball in bed, It's starting to really affect my relationship with my partner as we haven't moved out just yet, so I never want to go to her house, instead I make excuses why I can't go around as oppose to me telling her the truth, can anyone relate/help? Thanks for reading Jack,

I can't not do them before I leave the house, it makes me late to work, It makes me really upset especially when I'm driving to work, although, my partner is very understanding and is always there for me which is a big boost! Jack,

I'm willing to do anything, I'll be sure to keep active on this forum because everyone is so reassuring and know what I'm trying to explain, I'll let you all know when I've been to see my GP Thank you again! Jack,

I couldn't get up in the morning and not do those things, if I didn't I think something bad will happen, and I would sit at work worrying about not doing those things, I've been doing it for so long, I don't even know I'm doing it sometimes Jack,

I hope he gives me an answer, it would be nice to know exactly what it is, thanks for the kind words also, sometimes it's nice to hear positive things Jack,

Thank you for your reply, I have never been told I have OCD or something similar so I'm like, do I have it? Don't I? I'm going to see my GP next week, I'm terrible for worrying as well, I literally worry about everything, I have irrational thoughts also, Hopefully there is something to help me, I know it's not going to be easy, Jack,

Hi all, I have been suffering with what I think is OCD for between 15-20 years, I'm not sure how to say this without sounding silly, here are just a few things I have to do on a daily basis, Open my window, look over to the neighbors house, then look at the light above the garage, and say I love you Nana. Look in the mirror and smile (thinking in my head I'm going to have a good day). I have to make my bed, and arrange 3 pillows and a cushion in a certain order. Walk downstairs and open and close all the doors in the house, check all the windows are locked. Walk my dogs to the same place and count to 4 when I get there. Always make sure my shoes are together on the floor, with the left one slightly in front of the right. Check all doors are locked 4 times. Get in my car and turn it on before I open the locked gate, then go back and check the gate after I've locked it and got into my car. Always put my bag for work in the passenger side before I get in the car. I think what I'm looking for is any advise that I can get, and maybe some words of comfort really, Thank you for taking the time to read this Jack

can anyone help?