Hey there

[Guest starryeyes]

Hi guys,

I have had OCD since I was a child but it got swallowed up with all the other madness in my life. Since unpicking all that madness, the OCD has come back with a vengeance to remind me it's still there.

I have obsessional thoughts about certain things which I then act on urges to make myself feel better. As a child, I would obsess about the house burning down; I would crawl out of bed in the middle of the night to turn all the sockets off. I didn't know what this was at that time and I never received any help. I also would kick the edges of rooms in sets of 8...

I still do things in sets of 8 - I click my throat when I am stressed with obsessional thoughts, tap my fingers into my palms, touch things etc. I also see unwanted images that scare me. I was thinking of trying to draw these.

I have finally opened up to my psychiatrist about the OCD - I have never spoke about it before, thinking it was *just* a phobia and I needed to get over myself. Recently, however, it's interfering massively with my life. My psych has put my on clonaprimine and has referred me to a psychologist.

I have other things I may talk about.

Anyway, thanks for having me

Starry xxx

Edited December 2, 2014 by starryeyes

[PolarBear]

Welcome to the forum, starry.

You are doing well in that you can identify your obsessions and compulsions. That's a big step. Next is to figure out how to reduce and eliminate your compulsions, which will have the positive side effect of reducing the strength of your obsessions.

Do have a look around and jump right in.