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Hi I'm John. I have OCD.


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Hi there

I'm in a really low place with deep depression / OCD right now. They seem to come together. It's exacerbated by some tough external circumstances. I am an alcoholic, sober for 13 years. My first sponsor in AA attended Sex Addicts anonymous and it came to be I may be a sex addict. No particular reason, I did use porn but it did not interfere with my life or real sex life and did not cause me concern until I decided to attend an SA meeting. I then became terrified of speaking to or seeing my sponsor. Since then there have been a few times in the last 15 years where this obsession has come back. It gets so that I can't look at a woman, see words with sexual connotations without feeling anxious and ashamed. I do use porn now and then (I'm a single man, most recent gf liked using it too) but I know it's not obsessive and it's not wrong, although I'm aware people have varying views on this. Has anyone else experienced anything like this, have any thoughts in it? I'm new to this and would like to maybe just make contacts with OCD. I don't do physical compulsions but do count in my head and count letters in words, only liking it when the number of letters are even!!

J

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Guest Sisyphus

Hi there

I'm in a really low place with deep depression / OCD right now. They seem to come together. It's exacerbated by some tough external circumstances. I am an alcoholic, sober for 13 years. My first sponsor in AA attended Sex Addicts anonymous and it came to be I may be a sex addict. No particular reason, I did use porn but it did not interfere with my life or real sex life and did not cause me concern until I decided to attend an SA meeting. I then became terrified of speaking to or seeing my sponsor. Since then there have been a few times in the last 15 years where this obsession has come back. It gets so that I can't look at a woman, see words with sexual connotations without feeling anxious and ashamed. I do use porn now and then (I'm a single man, most recent gf liked using it too) but I know it's not obsessive and it's not wrong, although I'm aware people have varying views on this. Has anyone else experienced anything like this, have any thoughts in it? I'm new to this and would like to maybe just make contacts with OCD. I don't do physical compulsions but do count in my head and count letters in words, only liking it when the number of letters are even!!

J

Hi John,

Welcome to the forum. That's a good honest account there - well done.

I think a lot of guys have sex/porn addiction, but with OCD added to the mix, it gets complicated eh ;)

At least you've been proactive in trying to face your problems so you're ahead of the game.

I hope you can find some kindred spirits on here

Cheers,

David.

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