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Hi Chrissie, I'm dealing with the same kind of thoughts and some others too and as Bev53 has said, checking, looking for reassurance, ruminating etc... are all mental compulsions you need to try to resist the urge to engage with which I know, is hard to do (believe me, I know ). In regards to not getting a 'jolt', as well as what Bev said, it is also going to be really hard to get one whilst you are so churned up with confusion and anxiety. Someone once said, your brain is there to keep you safe not happy, so I imagine you brains prioritising looking for threats over responses of happiness. In regards to ERP, I have found with mine that the bulk of the work is trying not to engage with the thoughts as rumination, reassurance and checking have been my biggest problem especially as there is no real physical compulsions to deal with as such. Symps

Just trying not to engage with the thoughts and focus on something else. Exercise helps me with my overall wellbeing.

Unfortunately, this is what I am going through at the moment also. I would strongly recommend you arranging to see a CBT therapist and working on this with them. You said you weren't sure how helpful it was last time, so it'd be worth looking for one who specialises in OCD, so you can get the correct help. In the meantime, try not to engage with the thoughts and be kind to yourself.

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Yes it makes sense. Put out one fire and another will start elsewhere. You need to let it burn itself out and not fuel anymore fires. I know it's easier said than done. I've been in and out of cycles for years now. But the times I've felt better in myself are the times I've not engaged with the thoughts. Resisted ruminating, checking and rode the anxiety. I hope one day, I'll do it for good!

Yes you did. But this seems like an obsession and to check would be a compulsion. What if you checked and the answer was a plausible one? How long before you doubted or questioned this answer? Or had questions about it? Unfortunately, that's how OCD works. Short term relief but long term struggle. I'm trying to sit with my obsessions at the moment and it is hard but I know it to engage with them, the whole nightmare will just re-start again.

Good morning Rake Cleaver, Tbh, the real issue here would be all the rituals and compulsions you are doing. There's always a risk of pregnancy, even in safe sex but no matter how much you understand things, OCD will always have you questioning 'what if' etc... What I would suggest is trying to un-engage with the thoughts, and let them niggle at you but resist the urge to engage with them. It'll be tough to begin with but you should eventually see them trouble you less. Symps

I understand. I have OCD that intrudes on my relationship with my wife and I always worry about upsetting her. Fortunately, she understands a bit about OCD and seems to take it in her stride but it helps me to get it off my chest and she doesn't reassure me. It's brought us closer tbh. Perhaps if you discuss it with your partner, tell him it's OCD and don't want reassurance just his support. It may at least give you someone to turn to in your home life?

Typing it on his phone would be a compulsion, so no. You can discuss it with your partner if they understand OCD but ideally, it's best to try and un-engage with the thoughts and move on.

I know. I find that I have been ruminating for hours before I catch myself

I wouldn't look for an explanation, it'll drive you mad. Unfortunately, you need to leave it and ride out the anxiety.

Hi Cam, You won't be able to get your head around this until you stop engaging with the thoughts as it's only adding fuel to the fire. Relationships have to be based on trust, so you will need to take a leap of faith. It'll be tough, but you need to un-engage with the thoughts. Symps

Hi Gordon, Seeking reassurance is a compulsion as is ruminating. Symps

Tbh, I have not seen anyone on here with the exact same issues I have but if I put it I black and white, there's a trigger, an obsession and compulsions. So I need to take a leap of faith as to what it is.

Same. This is what I keep doing and repeating the cycle