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Imhotep

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  1. Been putting that into practice and yeah, seems to be working. I'll try to keep it up for a few days.
  2. Hi all, I've been making headway against this recent relapse I'm experiencing. However, my OCD is trying to get my attention by repeating incorrect statements over and over again. The statement is " I am a paedophile" I know it's completely false, I have never engaged in any such activity or have those desires at all, but it's still bothersome. I don't know how best to approach this, maybe a "maybe I am, maybe I'm not" or "Nice try OCD, you can't fool me that easily"?
  3. Thanks Snowbear. I know watching uncomfortable topics can be used as a form of ERP, but on Monday I was just adamant to remove the thoughts to alleviate my spike of anxiety, when really what I should have done was to let those feelings go. I have been able to watch TV about triggering topics in the past, on this occasion I couldn't let it slide. A learning experience for sure.
  4. Hi all, I've been having a good few months regarding OCD. Yes I've been getting intrusive thoughts still, but not bothering me and using techniques daily. Yesterday, I was watching a medical drama series that my girlfriend and I have been binging and enjoying. However, one episode featured a paedophile that had gone into hospital with self inflicted injuries, and things don't go well for him. He mentioned how he hated how he was, and it freaked me out, my mind went to "what if this is me or end up like him?" Today I've been wracked with anxiety in my stomach all day, with horrible statements going round my head. I've been quickly trying to apply what works for me, and I'm a bit annoyed that I've allowed it back in. I put in a lot a hard work a few months ago and feel like I've gone down a few rings of the recovery ladder. Has anyone else experienced a similar trigger from a show? It's so annoying!
  5. Thank you for your input DRS1. I'll put that into practice
  6. Hi all, Although I'm starting to get better in my recovery, OCD is trying to throw obstacles in my way constantly. My new problem are what I term 'thought statements'. These are thoughts disguised as my own thinking for example "I need/must/ have a desire to harm" and it's proving problematic, as I know that those thoughts are not me in that their content is ego-dystonic, but I have this fear of being duped into carrying out the act. I'm not really sure how best to tackle this form of obsession, other than seeing it pass by?
  7. Yeah quite right, I don't believe in magical powers at all. I hate how the OCD thinks you're a gullible idiot that will do and believe anything it presents to you.
  8. Hi all, I want to revisit this topic because I had a bizarre intrusive thought of needing to do something illegal in order to prevent my GF from getting Covid! So, so ridiculous. I mean she ended up getting Covid anyway, because she was hugging and kissing her dad the day he found out he had it 3 days ago. Which is the obvious answer. What bothers me is that the intrusive thought was (technically) right on this occasion. Had I done the illegal thing (never, ever happening) she was gonna get Covid regardless. I just don't like the idea of any intrusive thought being truthful in any way, as they are the opposite to me.
  9. Thanks! Yes that is what concerns me about having inappropriate thoughts when holding her and how that would make feel. But I suppose that's more ruminating I don't need to get involved with.
  10. You're quite right Smithy, thank you. I just have to brave, I was reading about someone completely collapsing over something they did 20 years ago which literally was just a belly rub, I'd hate the OCD to get that bad.
  11. Hi all, As the title suggests, I'm to be an uncle for the first time soon and it makes me and my family so happy. However, I'm struggling with OCD at the moment, triggered by other stressors going on in my life. Of course the OCD has targeted my soon to be niece, and I feel so sad about it. Until a month ago, I was looking forward to meeting her now I'm dreading it for what the OCD might throw at me. It's already being disgusting, and I want to accept the thoughts as they are, but my mind is being difficult to control. I suppose that's part of the problem anyway, where trying to control thoughts they get worse. I just cannot believe my brain can come with such thoughts!
  12. Thanks for your inputs, I wish my brain wasn't so creative sometimes!
  13. Hi all, I'm feeling on the right path towards recovery, really trying with acceptance and allowing any thoughts to go unchallenged, treating each with being 'just thoughts'. Trouble is now they've gone to another level of repulsive. It's getting difficult to ignore and my imagination is getting worse, although I know it's all a way to get my attention. Has anyone else experienced this when trying to practice mindfulness? I should add I have been feeling much calmer of late after starting this acceptance strategy.
  14. Hi all, I want to add to this thread rather than start a new one, but I'm struggling to sleep at the moment. It's not getting to sleep that is the problem, but that I wake up in a panic after only 2 or 3 hours of sleep and then I can't switch off. Is there anything I can take that isn't sleeping tablets to help? I like the other suggestions too.
  15. Good points, thank you. Earlier in the day I've decided to have a "I don't care" attitude to the OCD and it seems to be helping. Trying to adopt the attitude of someone who wouldn't be suffering with OCD with the same thoughts. And yeah I feel much better for it!
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