Angry at my OCD

[Astra]

Just as the title says I'm angry. As you may know one of my OCD types is around my relationship. I was just talking to my partner about my worries (which I know I shouldn't and should try deal with it alone or else it won't get better if I keep reassuring myself by offloading on to him)... And I wanted to say I love him but my head constantly makes me doubt and so I couldn't say it because at that time my head was making me feel like it wasn't true.

I want to be with him and I want to want to be with him.

Just stressing and a bit angry with myself atm

[Symps07]

Don't be angry at yourself, you're suffering with OCD, a seriously debilitating disorder which is punishing you enough already without you joining in :original:

Don't look for reassure, but just tell your boyfriend how you feel & live with the doubt, it'll eventually subside.