My health support workers sort of comments on my progress/our work

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Yesterday I saw my health support worker we were meant to go to the gym together to do a workout as one of my goals&in him supporting me.But I told him I couldn't go ahead with it as the events the day before has significantly distressed me so badly& I was so shaken & needed to talk a bit I think he sort of understood.Anyway he made some comments about my progress& our work together I've tried to take them as understandable but I feel a little bit here&there.He said in the last 6 to 12 months there has sort of been some progress but I've seemed to have stagnated a bit &we do a lot of talking& preparation but I've struggled to put many things into action.He said he along with my other health professionals understand the My OCD,BDD,Anxiety,Depression etc etc as much as I think they may understand I don't really know they may fully understand the impact it has on me without any offence to them all :original: .

I did say to him I know we do talk a lot about things& do struggle many times with putting things into action,I feel I'm trying hard but the impact I think of all the conditions&trying to maybe doing so much could be what is happening.For e.g maybe a bout 6- 12 months ago I was struggling to have even a shower a week& now I usually have two I don't know if that is really big?, I struggled always to wear new clothes due to my OCD now I usually try to always wear one new item of clothing everyday,I try my best to see my friends very regularly& make a big effort in catching up with people I haven't seen in ages.

I struggle so much really with OCD still & my moods I do want to improve on so many things but it has been so hard,I've tried to take his comments as not offensive I just don't know if he understands for e.g as something small as wearing a new type of clothing everyday distresses me,trying to clean my room,trying to do the things in my life I need to attend to.I know he's trying his best to help me& I've struggled so often applying myself as many of the tasks even when trying have become just so big I've ended up crumbling .

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I hope someone can please respond to this Thanks :original: .

[Guest eden1616]

Maybe show him this post and see what he says it sounds to me that he is just trying to encourage you but perhaps he is doing it the wrong way.

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Thanks a lot Edy much appreciated hun :original: ,I know he said he's trying to challenge me& I do totally honestly understand that truly.He said he understands about the OCD,BDD,Anxiety&Depression but I don't mean to be offensive of course I don't think he may understand how much the conditions really do impact on me& I have tried to explain a little bit also,maybe I need to go much further to discuss with him I don't know :original: .

[Guest eden1616]

Maybe you should talk to him more about how it affects you. I have A LOT of trouble speaking and due to that my psychologist had to guess a lot of things which of course meant that he sometimes got things wrong I didn't blame him but I have tried to speak more recently which has helped and maybe you just need to explain thing to him more.

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Thanks Edy I will try to do that :original: , usually I can open up with them be it my DR(Psychiatrist) psychologist, Health suppport worker, BDD specialist Dr I try to tell them exactly what i do feel& how difficult it is.I don't ever want to talk about them,I think the part is they may not really know the extent of how distressing it is with the OCD& how it really impacts even small things which i know should be easy which I'm trying to push through everyday for e.g wearing a new item of clothing everyday, cleaning my bedroom,changing my lifestyle.I know very often I've probably had the chance to do something&haven't did it I'm prepared to honestly say yes I could've done certain things when given a chance but many times it's just been very tough for a variety& obvious reasons :original: .