Why I get different and higher erection

[Guest Tomaspachino]

It makes me so much depressed. I am so confused and feeling so unhappy.

I am sure absolutely sure I have HOCD. From my childhood I only was aroused and attracted to women. Also now being 35 I only want to have sex with women and attracted to women.

It started more than 2 years ago, when one situation made me confused and since then I was being too much attentive to my arousal and erections. I was suffering about every reaction.

Once, being nervous I saw a naked body image of a boy in internet and it hit me a highest arousal which I had when I was teenager or a child (to girls).

And now, sometimes it happens that every intrusive thought about naked boy, or homosexual, or even situation when boy is going to get naked, makes me confused - I feel groin response and also, I feel that I am making press not to be aroused!!!

and it seems to me that if I get erection, this erection will be DIFFERENT AND HIGHER than the erection I have to girls!!!

I no more feel the anxiety or fear about this arousal, (because now I know it must be HOCD),

But have NO idea why why why I get higher erection which is so close to the erection I got when was teenager? (((

please HELP and give me advice!!!

[PolarBear]

Stop comparing your erections. Stop trying to figure out if your erections are different when you get intrusive thoughts.

[Guest Tomaspachino]

thank you for your reply

but it makes me so unhappy and depressed because the fact makes me confused: whether it is HOCD or homosexuality

As I have heard that straight must not have such reactions and erections, I feel so much different in this way and this makes my psychic absolutely destroyed, feeling alone and non adequate in the society (((

having lost myself and my identity, my life is absolutely destroyed and can not make normal communications with people - they think I am crazy because I can not act normally - 24 hours thinking about these facts which simply makes me destroyed ((

Edited March 26, 2015 by Tomaspachino

[Guest Tomaspachino]

NO more comments? and advice? there must be even one sentence guessing the problem but could not find that :/

[LizzyHoy]

Try telling yourself that even if you do get an erection when you see a naked man it doesn't matter. You obviously don't want to have sex with men because you are so distressed by the possibility that you might have an erection.

I am a woman so I can't empathise fully, but the body responds to the brain - for example if you are worried that your heart is beating too fast you will start to believe that it is, it might even feel like it is. I think the same thing can happen with erections. It doesn't matter what your body does - you are interested in women.

[Guest Tomaspachino]

Hello LizyyHoy

You seem so attentive person.

Thank u so much for your comment. Every word written in my topic makes me calm. and especially your's - as a women and also, u wrote quite logical and clever thing.

I must know better about OCD and so I hope get a progress

Thank u very much again and I hope to get progress!

[LizzyHoy]

I'm very pleased my post was helpful!