I am a 17 year old girl having ocd..I need friends who have ocd to understand me

[Guest nidu]

I nidu,17 year old girl,i have ocd from last 4 years..in the beginning i dint even have a slightest idea that its an mental illness...i used to get bad thoughts like something bad will happen to my loved ones if i do this or if i dont do this n repeting things n all those pain..nw i know that its ocd..nw i am able to control my physical ritual but mental obsessions and rituals is killing me day by day..my parents are very supportive,loving n caring but nw after my last brakedown am like hopeless not even able to listen to my parents..just shutting the dour n being alone in my room from 5 days..need friends..pls can anyone become my friends..?

[Guest Noddy]

Hi. I've just joined a few moments ago and your post was the first I have read. I just wanted you to know that you are most definitely not alone. Like you, I'm hoping that the shared experience on this forum will be beneficial and helpful to all of us.

[Symps07]

Hi nidu,

Welcome to the forum!

Sorry you're going having a bad time.

Mental compulsions are always worse than physical ones I find.

Is there any thought in particular you are finding hard to stop? or is it general rumination?

Regards

Symps! :original:

[Symps07]

Hi. I've just joined a few moments ago and your post was the first I have read. I just wanted you to know that you are most definitely not alone. Like you, I'm hoping that the shared experience on this forum will be beneficial and helpful to all of us.

Hi Noddy,

Welcome to you as well! :original:

[Guest nidu]

Thanks symps n noddy

[Guest nswitch]

Nidu you certainly are not alone. I first stared suffering from LCD when I was 15. Have you started on a course of therapy? This really will help. But for now, remind yourself this is not you; these thoughts,are random thoughts been thrown up by your brain. Don't try to rationalise them; just say 'it's my ocd playing tricks again'. Once you can do this, you will start to feel better. But I'd really recommend seeing a professional to help you work through this too.take care.x

[Guest nidu]

Thank you so much nswitch...yes i was taken to a psychiatrist in october 2013,they gave me medicines..fluvoxamine and i felt better for sometimes i took tablets for 7 months and i discontinued it..at the same time i went to therapist for cbt but she was very slow and i just left it after one or two session...now ocd is back..now also i am on fluvoxamine and an anti anxiety tablet...i just dont want to go to a doctor again..i am just tired of my life...dont want to live..and not brave enough to kill myself...I forgot that real me..once again thanks so much for caring..it meant a lot to me.

[Guest nidu]

Please somebody tell something

[Guest nswitch]

Hold on in there,nidu. I know this disorder wears you down. Read through the posts on here. You'll realise there are people out there, even if you can't see or speak to them direct who know and appreciate exactly what you are going through.

What are the particulars of your OCD? Try and share them here, in a safe environment. You will be suprised how,much power they loose once you get them off your chest, so to speak.

Please don't give up. I do know how you feel-I felt the same as you st one point. But you can and,will beat this. And don't stop reaching out to people.try another therapist and keep trying until you find the right fit for you.take care and thinking of you.x

[Guest nidu]

thank you so much nswitch..n please talk to me when you are free pls

.thanks a lot

Edited January 23, 2015 by nidu

[Guest nidu]

My ocd is pure o where i get urges to do rituals mentally ..thats in my mind more than physical rituals to reduce anxiety.

main problem is intrusive thoughts,images...they always pop into my head and make me anxious....

obsessions are always more when i am about to do something which seems very important or favourite to me,ocd thought tells me not to do that work,if i do something bad will happen..so i am not able to take interest in anything...

another problem is sometimes when a bad intrusive image comes to my mind..i feel like'oh i am gone,this image is going to be in my head always no matter what i do to get rid of it' and when this feeling comes i become fully distracted from all the real life works and my mind sticks to those image i mean as long as i worry about that image being in my head..my mind automatically remembers the image.

sometimes its like this particular intrusive image is alloted to my mind while doing this particular work..n really this worry only makes me remember the intrusive image..n i cant stop worrying...

sorry for the long lines...n thanks

waitin for advice,comfort and help

Edited January 23, 2015 by nidu

[Guest nswitch]

Nidu, this is exactly what I get: intrusive thoughts about things,I want to do-but the fear that if I do them, something terrible Will happen. The,first thing you must realise is, your thoughts cannot influence events I.e a fear that something will happen will not make it happen.

The next bit is hard but please trust me on this: you have to feel the fear and do it anyway. Once you realise that nothing will happen, it will start to liberate you.

This is very abbreviated but it's essentially what you have to find the courage to do. I know,it's hard. We have all been there. But it's possible.

Hang in there. You are going to be ok.

[Guest nidu]

Hey nswitch thanks so much....u said to feel fear and do it anyway..when i come to know nothing will happen its going to liberate me,that really works

but sometimes the fear will be like fully irrational and tricky..that is like something bad will happen after death..or like inside my mind...so even after i work the doubt remains:-(

[Guest nswitch]

This is why you need to work with a therapist, Nidu. They will help you to realise that there is no certainty about things like that. It's important you challenge these fears-but in a safe, supported way.

[Guest nidu]

yeah you are right....but i just cant go outside the home..

[Guest nidu]

Hey nswitch thanks a lot for caring.

..now a days i feel

better being isolated,i have been

taking leave from college from 7

days..i just dont want to go there

again..last year almost because of this

ocd,i wasted one year of my studies as

i left that science subject..this year i

took commerce subjects which are

easier and actually i am a one of the

toppers in the class..but from

somedays i am totally hopeless..i dont

want to write my final exams which is

there after a month..ocd took my

studies,my friends,my happiness,my

dreams,totally everything..i feel like

am soo weak not even able to

overcome ocd,i feel lik i dont deserve

my parents love and care....now i hate

myself

Edited January 23, 2015 by nidu

[Guest nidu]

Sorry ,my English is not good....and

thanks for the help..waiting for more

advices and help.

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I am a 19 year old girl (physically male of course, getting help with that too) who has had OCD her whole life. When I was about 9 I would wash my hands until the skin peeled off.

You NEED to focus on the positives, if you don't depression will take hold and it is like a tar that is difficult to get out from. You could start writing a diary(assuming you don't already) except you focus on what went right with the day. If you do this you may start to be able to see the positives more easily.

you say you are to scared to kill yourself which is GOOD! It does not take bravery to kill oneself, it takes self-absorption and anyone who is "brave" enough is an idiot. OCD of you kind tends to happen to some of the most caring individuals among us and by the sound of things you are very bright. You are only seven-teen and you have a full and possibly bright future ahead of you.

try to start by simply giving the medication that you have resumed to take about 6 weeks to kick in possibly longer. You could also stop doing some of the smaller mental rituals. then work your way up, but don't over do it. Remember that it has been 4 years since the OCD began and nothing has happened......3 for me.. :clover:

[Guest nidu]

Thanks so much for the reply highlight.