crying endlessly

[Guest messihead]

Today has not been one of my best days to say the least! I was awake until 4 am this morning with ocd and trying to research why it makes us think we have done something if we haven't and also trying to rationalise my thoughts. However. Today I was so tired from last night I did not get out of my bed until 3pm. The moment I opened my eyes I started crying. I had counselling at 5pm so got up got showered and went. The whole hour throughout counselling I cried and after when I got home I cried. Just now I am crying!

Anyway. I'm feeling rather drained of energy and my emotions are scatty.. don't think my hormones are helping to much with my pregnancy either. But today I have felt like ****.

I find it extremely difficult to grasp that this time is ocd. But. More difficult to deal with my constant intrusive thoughts. The thought comes... what am I supposed to do?????? Let it be there... but not engage... how do I do this????? As soon as the thought comes I engage it's there I'm thinking why.

IM really struggling with ocd at the moment so please don't be tough on me. I'm crying all the time and worrying about the birth of my baby and my relationship with my man. I'm worrying about all this because I have intrusive thoughts that I have betrayed my partner and the paternity of my baby. How or what can I do?

I'm screaming out for help please help me. And offer the basics of ocd how I would know it's ocd etc

[PolarBear]

research why it makes us think we have done something if we haven't and also trying to rationalise my thoughts.

Are compulsions. Like everyone with OCD you are your own worst enemy. You are carrying out compulsions, which seem logical to do, but ultimately they make the situation worse.

[Guest Rosiebella1]

First up you need to sleep. Your ocd is worse and you are crying because you are so tired. No sleep causes this. Get a good nights sleep and trust me you will feel so much better. You're hormones are everywhere because you are pregnant. The only way to deal with this is when you get a thought and start to engage you need to stop engaging. It's as simple as that. No matter how unsure or anxious you feel you musnt feed that thought or it makes it worse. If the thought is for example 'what if I cheated on my partner' you need to say to yourself 'oh well I can't be sure as I have ocd. I know I most probably didn't and that's ok' then get on with what you are doing. I don't know if this will help but sometimes I write the thought down in my phone and say I will come back to this later when less anxious. But if course when you are less anxious later on the thought won't matter to you and you just delete from your phone. You are trying to run from anxiety but you can't. You just have to accept it and simply not engage. I know you say that you automatically do engage but stop yourself. If you want to get better you have to help yourself and you will feel worse at first but the anxiety will pass. Give it a try :-) good luck hun and rest up look after yourself xx

[Guest messihead]

Thanx. So when the thought comes do not look into it? Just say it's a thought I have ocd and move on? If tho my fears are correct would destroy me. The birth scares me! Just say no your not getting to me ur a bully etc and move on?