megz150 Posted April 23, 2014 Share Posted April 23, 2014 Everytime I go to let something go I think 'well everything has an answer so if u just think for a minute you'll know whats true/just a thought' How can it be so difficult KNOWING things and yet seem so completely bad/wrong/dangerous as well. I don't know whether to let it go by telling myself its either not true or exaggerated or what to tell myself. Of course I know its my mind thats the problem but I don't know HOW to look at situations thats not an 'ocd response'. I had a good cry with mum last night but at first she said 'i dread you coming in in the morning'- as I always ask her whether my outfits ok before work' and I said 'so do I' and I really hope I wasn't saying/implying/meaning that i hate going in and seeing dad because i think he's pervy/cos my ocd revolves around him. So scared whether or not I make out i hate being around dad because ocd revolves around him. What on earth would this say/imply? Surely it says I believe my thoughts about dad. I could go on and on about different scenario's but I know that's me looking for reassurance. But I have enough worries to last a life time and writing individual things is not helpful at all in the long run, I know. Earlier me and friend watched a film with sex and rape and I said something like 'i've seen worse rapes/rape scenes' and it worries me what that says and implies? Obv I meant in films-not that I even have seen many rape scenes, I'm not sure really. I guess I have in some films. but it sounds like I wanted her to think i meant in real life. And I'm petrified that when I'm as down and stressed with ocd as i am- could be the time where i say and imply a lot of wrong/bad/false things and even BELIEVE them :-( I also worried so much earlier as my friend said ‘ew look at that kid’ as he was crying but looked mean and i said eww he looks nasty. But i’m so worried whether I said ooh in a pervy way. Same in cinema a baby cried and me and friend looked at one another but dunno what my face said ‘aww or ooh’ it seems so important to monitor what i say and do becaused if I made just one ‘oooh’ in a horrid way it wouldnt seem as bad as doing it twice and then ppl would really think im a paedophile. Im scare that i’ll now get fears that im a paedophile because i had that before around my ex’s lovely niece. I worried I was saying, implyign, doing inappropriate things. and it seemed the more scared i became the more i felt maybe i liked children and the more i really felt i was doing, saying, implying. I wouldnt have though would I? I know I have ocd, i know its a condition and i know its not normal and only I can fix it. I just dont know how to go about tackling ocd? Any tips and tools would be so useful right now. Im feeling so determined Link to comment
Guest roseanne Posted April 24, 2014 Share Posted April 24, 2014 First of, I could give you reassurance for all these scenarios because they are not the way you think they are. What I would recommend is the book "Brain lock". That is the only way to help me because I there are no therapy spots available where I live. You should definitely try that and you could also get it as an ebook. Dont overthink Link to comment
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