OCD weird day

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Okay today was a weird day for me mentally. Firstly I got up early after a nasty attack of intrusive thoughts that where very disturbing and would not let me get back to sleep. I have to do a ritual when I get up in the morning. This ritual is usually simple and easy but this time it was not simple at all and was quite difficult to do ( had me there for about 7 minutes) considering it usually takes only one minute to do.

Now this next bit is harder to discribe...do you know when you have a cold? There are of course physical symptoms but also a mentally "acknowledgment" that you are ill.

Its like that! I feel a tangible sense that there is something wrong but I don't have anything like that at the moment physically.

It is a quite unpleasant feeling. I have also attached meaning to physical pains almost as evidence that I am ill. But in a much more general way the whole day has had a "negative weired" feel to it.

What is all this? Is this more OCD smoke and mirrors? Is there a name for it?