inneedofhelp Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 (edited) I have contamination phobia, with anything I can't see. This is usually radiation, germs,hiv and asbestos. For months now I've been worrying about asbestos in my house whilst major refurb was going on. I had survey after survey and in the end, like most houses, they found a trace of the less serious type in some artex. This was removed by professionals today. I was so happy. Tonight I went to the chippy and now I'm convinced a gay persn may have accidentally spit in my eye as he spoke to somebody. If it had blood in it I could catch HIV. I was in such a state when I got back my wife told me to 'man up'. There are a few cases worldwide of cases with people having hiv passing it on with blood in their mouths in this way but I have no idea if he had hiv, no idea if he had blood in his mouth and no idea if it actually was spray from his spit. So OCD has got its way again. I get shut of asbestos after test after test, and survey after survey, so now it comes back in another way. Edited April 18, 2014 by inneedofhelp Link to comment
inneedofhelp Posted April 18, 2014 Author Share Posted April 18, 2014 So if he did have HIV, say 1 in 50 gay people, and assuming there was blood in there then there is a 1 in 1,000 chance I could have caught it, assuming it got in my eye and there was blood then I have 1 in 50,000 chance. http://www.cdc.gov/HAI/pdfs/bbp/Exp_to_Blood.pdf Link to comment
Franklin12 Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 (edited) Stop looking stuff up, acknowledge you are having a huge surge of anxiety, distract yourself with a mindful activity. And stop looking stuff up. I had a 'I've got HIV' fear once, it was terrifying, I completely believed it to be true. When I went and had a test which was negative, I thought I couldn't be happier and my torment was all over. But the very next day a new fear just popped into my head, totally unrelated, which caused me as much torment but lasted many years because there was no test that I could have to see if the fear was true. Keep up with all the techniques we know work, and you can improve how you respond to these triggers. Edited April 18, 2014 by Franklin12 Link to comment
inneedofhelp Posted April 18, 2014 Author Share Posted April 18, 2014 Stop looking stuff up, acknowledge you are having a huge surge of anxiety, distract yourself with a mindful activity. And stop looking stuff up. I had a 'I've got HIV' fear once, it was terrifying, I completely believed it to be true. When I went and had a test which was negative, I thought I couldn't be happier and my torment was all over. But the very next day a new fear just popped into my head, totally unrelated, which caused me as much torment but lasted many years because there was no test that I could have to see if the fear was true. Keep up with all the techniques we know work, and you can improve how you respond to these triggers. Thanks. I know your right. If it wasn't asbestos then it's hiv. Next week it will be something else. Huge spike at the moment. Link to comment
Franklin12 Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 I know how it feels. It WILL go down. And when it does lessen in intensity, remember how it felt and then next time you get a spike it will give you the confidence that you will get through it. Link to comment
ecomum Posted April 18, 2014 Share Posted April 18, 2014 You two sound just like me.one contamination spike replaces another.cbt really helped me and now i think 'in a while this will be over so ill try not to let it get me down in the mean time' i find this really hard but it helps. Link to comment
inneedofhelp Posted April 18, 2014 Author Share Posted April 18, 2014 Thanks. That spike took a couple of hours to come down but I'm now more relaxed. Link to comment
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